She's Cool Like That...

Things I'm over:

2012-01-01T22:41:00.002-05:00

#214 People talking reckless when they're drunk.
#320 People getting drunk alone just because.
#126 People getting mad and acting like females by not mentioning the thing that made them angry.

GLWT

2011-10-05T00:18:00.003-04:00

I think my dude is trying to get me to say I love him.

Yeah, I don't know about that.

He's convinced I do for some reason, lol.

I don't think I could do that yet. At least not right now. I do care about him a whole lot more than I expected and I MIGHT be a little attached now BUT it's gonna take a tad bit more time and effort.

Nostalgia

2011-09-01T01:39:00.004-04:00

I haven't posted here in over a year.

I kinda miss this place. It makes me feel like...like...like how I felt 3 years ago.

I can't say one of those other markers people use like high school or whatever. I was working. I'm still working.

So anyway...I'm currently trying to figure out if I should get back to this or not. I think I'll keep it for when I want to say shit I can't say on tumblr. Like right now.

This joint needs a re-vamp ASAP though.

I think I'd like me.

2010-08-26T00:13:00.006-04:00

Seriously. I was listening to Tegan and Sara's song You Wouldn't Like Me earlier..

-sings- I feeel liiike I wouldn't like me if I meeet meeeeeee

So anyway, I was thinking at first.. I probably wouldn't like me if I met myself. I'm kind of an asshole who always looks at the negative sides of things too and I question everything. Aaannnd if I really like somebody I say and do stupid shit that has me facepalming when I think back to it and realize what I've done.

But then.. then I went and read some of my old post on here. Like from around... two summers ago maybe. I'd like THAT person. She was cool.

I wonder what happened.

You ever wondered what it was about you that made people like you?

I realized people laugh at stuff I say a lot. Not like.. laughing at me but I either don't like something or I have some smart ass comment. I don't even mean to do that sometimes but I find people waiting to see what I have to say about something.

Am I really THAT girl now? I'm not sure if I should laugh at that.

Everybody Plays The Fool

2010-08-16T14:00:00.002-04:00

Everybody has that one person who they'd do anything for.

Somebody that even if they say some fucked up shit to you you'd be like "he/she was just joking". Somebody that..even if both of you got with somebody else you'd be secretly waiting for them to break up with the other person. Somebody who's jokes always seem way funnier than everybody elses somehow. Somebody you'd give anything to.

Do anything for.

I have that. He doesn't have me though. Shame.

I don't even think he knows who he is anymore.

And when the music starts to play,
And your ability to reason is swept away,
Oh, heaven on earth is all you see;
You're out of touch with reality;

No Regrets?

2010-08-15T00:57:00.004-04:00

I said I was going to go to sleep an hour ago but now I'm here writing this.

I was thinking about the whole no regrets thing.

I think I may have one...wait two. I have two regrets already.

This is going to sound weird but one of them I can still avoid if I stop being a bitch about it and the other is already out of my hands. Bitch in this case means punk, btw.

Both of them involve the same people.

I need to get it together.

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Oh, and I know you read this you dick. Stop randomly calling me asking what's going on and just ask me about the post nosy ass.

Road Trips.

2010-08-09T22:09:00.003-04:00

I'm easily bored & restless.

I always want to get away somewhere. Anywhere sometimes.

The idea of going to the same three or four places people always go doesn't interest me. What are those places? Name three places off the top of your head you always hear about. Yes. Those three.

I want to go to Japan, London, France, China,... Singapore!...everywhere. At least one time in my life.

Those are the big trips though. Sometimes I up and decide that if I have the money either next week or the week after I might want to go to New York or Chicago or something....back to Los Angeles. Hell any part of California is fine with me. It's completely different than everything I'm used to here and that's why I like it so much.

The point of all this is why does everybody act like they're already old and locked down. Nobody is spontaneous anymore. I want to up and go out of town if I have a day off and wait until the last minute to come back. I don't mind being tired as hell at work because that doesn't last all day and the memories of what happened the night before is all I'll be thinking about. Somebody I know told me that they needed six months sometimes for trips. SIX MONTHS! Maybe I do dream to much and maybe I am crazy..but I told her that was like having a life plan to take a trip. I'm not planning on freaking moving somewhere for 2 months. Geez, lol.

I don't want the majority of my experiences to be shit that happened at work. I don't want to miss out on experiences all together because I was at work.

Jobs/careers are supposed to enhance my life not be my life.

I'm out of going to the same 3 clubs that play the same seven songs. I'd rather go to a live show with actual instruments and talented people. You know.. where they play music I know I like.

Or..OR! Or I could go to one where I won't have to see bitches all dressed in variations of the same outfit. Everybody thinks they're so unique these days. -rolls eyes-

Anyway.. NO REGRETS!

5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 ..11, 12, 13

2010-08-09T14:48:00.002-04:00

So everybody keeps talking about how at 5:06 and 7 seconds it'll be 5:06 and 7 seconds it'll be 05:06:07 08/09/10 and how it won't happen again for a while.

Why does this matter though? Am I missing something?

I mean.. this happens all the time just with different number. It's inevitable. They're numbers.

I remember the big deal people made about 01/01/01 ..and 03/04/05 ...

You get the point.

I guess its cool for those first 3 seconds when you realize it. I guess I just don't need 50 people to tell me about it like something spectacular was going to happen.

Wouldn't it be some bullshit if it did though?

...

2010-08-05T19:26:00.002-04:00

I love how music can relate to anybody and everybody's situation. No matter what it is.

No matter what you have gone through or are going through at the moment..somebody wrote a song about it.

I don't know what I'd do with myself without it.

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On another note... The speakers on my new computer suck ass. I hear that little vibrating thing in the background and everything. Shit is wack.

I'm Not Unfaithful But...

2010-08-04T00:10:00.004-04:00

Build a wall of books
Between us in our bed
Repeat repeat the words
That i know we both have said

Relax into the need
We get so comfortable
Remember when i was
So strange and likable

I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray

When i get a little scared
When i get a little scared
When i get a little

When i jerk away
From holding hands with you
I know these habits hurt
Important parts of you

Remember when i was
Sweet and unexplainable
Nothing like this person
Unlovable

I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray

When i get a little scared
When i get a little scared
When i get a little scared
When i get a little

Run run run run
Run run run run

I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray

I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray

I love them.

I'm Workin'..I think.

2010-07-13T19:03:00.004-04:00

I have a problem with getting things done.

Not really but really.

I try to do like 15 different things. If I had maybe an extra hour everything would be done.

Anyway, I have a million things to do this week that have to be done this week.

First is get rid of that old ass banner thing up there^^. The blog name isn't even the same and hasn't been since forever. -shakes head in shame-

Finish the layout for the new site I'm working on. I'm not sure if it's gonna me a music site or just a site for me yet.

Dye my hair. I'm kinda nervous about this though. I'm doing something different and if it doesn't come out right I'm gonna be piiiissseeed. You have to wait 2 weeks until it can be done again which means I'll look crazy at work and for the Paramore/Tegan and Sara concert. Wack.

Get my second..and maybe third tattoo. I was gonna get a piercing but punked out of that. It'll hurt longer and I may have to take it out for work. I'm not paying and then have to take it right out.

Buy a new bed. Just because I want one before I redo my room. I have this whole idea to change one corner of it into a space just for my records and the turntable & all that. Then another part for my dvds, cds and video games. Should be dope if it's ever done.

Uhh.

Write. I've been putting that off forever.

AND

I'm supposed to be practicing the bass.

I'm so behind.

I guess I just wasted more time typing this instead of doing them, huh?

"Don't Go For Solange When You Could Get Beyonce"

2010-07-09T23:04:00.004-04:00

Andre said that.

I like Solange a little better but I got the point.

I need to remember that.

Ya Mayme Wan Sum Mo Babe.

2010-07-08T02:17:00.004-04:00

This post was intended to make people very uncomfortable and give out too much information on my personal situations right now.

I decided I'd save that for later.

Maybe tomorrow. [I always hear the J5 song play in my head when I say that].

Instead. I'll leave this. It's mostly for me though.

Get dooowwnn, get doooowwwnnn, get ddooooooooowwwnnnn.

BTW, the title means more than just part of the song. Very relevant. Yep.

Eff Dreaming.

2010-07-07T01:08:00.005-04:00

Dreams suck.

You know why? Because of shit like what happened to me the other day.

It was the best dream I've had in a long time. It involved something I've been thinking about for years finally happening. THEN I woke up. I woke up happy as hell and in a great mood. That was until I realized that shit didn't really happen. Then I was kind of hurt. Like my mind gave me something I wanted then snatched it back by waking me up too early and for no reason. I just randomly woke up. Like "fuck your dream" No alarms, no people knocking, no loud talking.. just woke up. AND it was two hours too early.

Dreams are either good dreams that hurt your feeling by not being real or they're nightmares which are almost equally as wack.

...I want to have it again though. That'd be great.

Revelation

2010-07-05T21:58:00.005-04:00

So I tend to call all of my friends assholes. A lot of them are. Mostly the males though. I also realized that I've seen starting a lot of my sentences lately with "So..."

Anyway, I'm about 75-80% sure that the asshole is me now. They all seem to get along extremely well with each other.

No threats of violence or anything.

But what good is a friend if you can't smack them one day and tell them you love them the next?

-Just pretend there's a "clever" Thriller reference here-

2010-06-24T18:37:00.009-04:00

So, I was gonna save this whole idea and do it on his birthday because it kind of bothers me when people celebrate and do things on the day someone died. Not that much but enough. The post is kind of rushed through because it took me so long trying to decide what to put here and what to leave out. Then I had to figure out if I was gonna do one huge download or three separate ones. I decided on three. This is the first of those.

[Just to warn you...this is kinda rushed and BS'd so excuse me for a while until I can come back and fix it up.]

Anyway, I'm not gonna do a whole long story before the download.

I'll tell you about some of the song on this though because they all kinda have a story or things people would like/need to know.

The track listing goes like this.

1. Bumper Snippet
2. Serious Effect ft. LL Cool J
3. Work That Body
4. She Got It
5. Lisa, It's Your Birthday
6. Monkey Business
7. If You Don't Love Me
8. We Are Here To Change The World
9. Streetwalker
10. Fly Away
11. Someone In The Dark
12. Can't Get Outta The Rain
13. One Day I'll Marry You
14. Ain't No Sunshine [Unreleased Version]
15. I'll Be There [Unreleased Version]
16. Big Boy
17. Xscape
18. We've Had Enough [Extended Version]

So.. about some of the songs.

Numbers 2-7 were recorded during Michael's Dangerous era. That could be anywhere from the 87-91 though because he started recording for the Dangerous album the second Bad was finished.

xx. Serious Effect features LL Cool J and that could have easily been on the album.

xx. Lisa, It's Your Birthday is his demo version of the song Bart sings for Lisa on the episode of The Simpsons called Stark Raving Dad he appeared on. For legal reasons and all that other good stuff he could be on it but he couldn't sing on it and was credited as John Jay Smith.

According to the Simpsons wikia he's the one who came up with the idea to have Bart tell everyone that Michael Jackson was coming to his house and he requested that a joke about Prince be changed to one about Elvis.

xx. We Are Here To Change The World is from Captain EO, the 3D Disney film [that only showed at the theme parks] he starred in back in '86. It was directed by Francis Ford Coppola and executive produced by George Lucas. Oh and Angelica Houston and the midget from Bad Santa were in it. -shrug-.

xx. Streetwalker was supposed to be on Bad. Another Part Of Me [also in Captain EO but a different version] was chosen instead because his manager like it more. There's more to that story but I'm being lazy right now and don't feel like explaining it. Quincy Jones talks about it on the special edition of Bad.

Fly Away was recorded for Bad also. His eldest sister Rebbie also recorded it and released it with Michael singing back up.

Someone In The Dark was released on the E.T. Storybook album that was pulled pretty much because it violated every part of the contract that was made in order for him to do it. lol. That makes it the rarest and most expensive MJ record ever. I've seen people selling ones in terrible condition for $700. Not I.

Can't Get Outta The Rain was only released on the B-side of the Billie Jean single. It's essentially a alternate version of You Can't Win.

Lemme see uuuhhhh....

Big Boy is the first song MJ/J5 ever had on the radio. In the Jacksons movie they had it as that song Kansas City..that was wrong but so was a lot of stuff about that movie.

Like Michael recording Human Nature in 83 when Thriller came out in 82 and Michael having that pet rat in Gary and them playing Ben when that was the name of the movie about a rat he sung for after they'd been with Motown for a few years

...but why would details be important in a story about people's lives?

Download HERE.
[Ignore the terrible art.]

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Oh, so I also have enough demos and unreleased songs from Thriller for another one of these...I guess that's next.

Moonlight.

2010-03-12T23:38:00.004-05:00

I've finally admitted to myself that I still want him. Wack.

Not him but him.

I've been settling because I think I knew all along that...

Fuck it.

Have You Ever...?

2010-02-10T22:05:00.005-05:00

Have you ever fucked up really bad and didn't realize it until it was way too late.

So late that you're not even sure if you want to bring it up to apologize for it because you're hoping the person forgot or doesn't care anymore?

It's been so long that I keep thinking about it when they've probably moved on from it.

You ever been in that sitation?

Yeah, wack isn't it?

M.I.A.

2010-02-09T21:50:00.002-05:00

I'm not sure exactly why I haven't been posting here in the last 5 years.

Lord knows there have been days when I've needed to.

I may even be updating now only because I have nothing else to do but at least it's getting done. Right?

This may be one of those short post that are kind of cryptic and random. Yeah, that'll work for now.

Mmkay, so I think I have the best friends I could ever ask for. The only problem with that is they're never around. Not by their own choice but by mine. Kinda sorta. The ones I tell the most too are either hours or miles away.

When I see them, sometimes it's hard to explain (if I even bother trying) that I don't really care if I do much of anything with them. I'm fine with just being around or with them & have them being themselves. Make sense?

I've noticed that bores them but I'm completely content. I guess that's a little selfish but.. -shrug- What can you do?

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So my sister and I were talking the other day. She knows me a little better than I thought she did. I said one thing that was as vague as anything could be and she knew exactly what I was talking about, who I was talking about and the feelings that went through me when I said it. Great for her. Sucked for me.

Now that I'm thinking about it..all I really did was tell her one story. A couple minutes passed and then I did this whole heavy sighing thing and she makes the comment that nailed everything.

She's wack for that.

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I think somebody gave me "the eye" the other day and I was too lost in my own thoughts to realize it. They so could have ...gotten it back.

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I'm pretty sure I can be sent to hell for some of the thoughts I had while sitting in church the other day.

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I am not a She-devil.

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That probably isn't too believable after that whole church thing, huh?

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I have dreams bigger than my pockets.

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I miss Keef again. This time more than last time..weird.

I think that's enough for now...

You Know What Sucks?

2009-11-15T03:25:00.003-05:00

The fact that I'm just now realizing that I have this weird attraction to people I can't have.

It's like I'm playing a game with myself. Let's see if I can get him. Then when I do it turns into, lets see how far this will go/how long this will last.

That and I'm always attracted to people way too far from me..

What's that all about?

Let Me Just Put This Out There.

2009-09-02T21:25:00.003-04:00

I cook when I feel like it. I clean when I feel like it. I can be moody yes but humans are moody. It's not a strictly female thing. I know dudes who I'm convinced have had at least one period in their lifetime. I have my times where I can be annoying I guess. I have habits that people may not like but that's me.

I have a lot of flaws. A lot. I'm working on them. Kind of. I'm being really contradictory but whatever... I need to ramble right now. I love music. Period. Nearly everything. I can sit around for hours and o nothing but listen to music.

I've fucked up a couple relationships and just like everybody else I've blamed a couple of the other people instead of looking at myself. Shit happens.

I should apologize to Moonlight [who probably doesn't even remember that nick name] now. I mean, I should but I won't right now. There's so much I wanna say. I don't even have a plan for this post actually. I'm just typing. Whatever comes to me is what you see. Fuck it. I was looking at some old stuff a while back and putting the times together. I used to kind of put all of the communication things on Moonlight. Looking back, it was me. The timeline doesn't look good on my part at all. I'm sorry.

Probably doesn't even matter anymore but it helps me. I think.

Mkay. I'll probably be blogging more now. I have a lot to say that I've been keeping inside for whatever reason.

Random. Andre is my favorite blogger. Mmkay, I'm done.

We Can See Your Halo.

2009-08-28T01:16:00.003-04:00

I saw this on a Michael Jackson message board. I've found some amazing things on them recently and some really interesting people from all over the world.

I was gonna wait until Saturday to share this seeing as how that's his birthday but this is beautiful. I recommend actually watching it on YouTube though because it's partially cut off here. Kinda like watching a movie in full screen instead of wide. You don't get the whole thing.

[I didn't even really like this song before]

Best. Tribute. Ever.

Forever The King | Mixtape.

2009-08-03T17:55:00.006-04:00

So, like some people it still hasn't fully hit me that Michael Jackson died. It doesn't seem like he would ever die. Sounds weird but whatever. Anyway, my friend Keena [aka KayCee from The Lupe Fiasco Show] over at She's Not Famous put together the mixtape below. This one was kind of made to let people hear the greatness that is Michael Jackson aside from Billie Jean, Thriller & Beat It. Oh, there's some Jackson 5/Jacksons songs there too. The tracklisting is below.

BTW: There are 50 songs on it. Yes. 50. She did that because he died at 50. 46 main tracks and 4 bonus tracks. Also, the songs do not download in order so it's more of a way for you to catch up on some of what you may have missed.

click HERE to download

Tracklisting
1. Don't Know Why I Love You
2. Who's Loving You
3. I Can't Quit Your Love
4. Push Me Away
5. (You Were Made) Especially For Me^
6. The Lady In My Life
7. For All Time (Unreleased Demo)
8. Can You Feel It
9. Never Can Say Goodbye
10. This Place Hotel
11. Show You The Way To Go^
12. I Want To Be Where You Are
13. One More Chance
14. Hum Along and Dance
15. Dancing Machine
16. Music and Me^
17. Enjoy Yourself
18. We Are To Change The World ( From Disney's "Captain EO)
19. Human Nature
20. Monkey Business (Unreleased Track)
21.Someone Put Your Hand Out (Unreleased Track)
22. Destiny^
23. In The Back (Unreleased Track)
24. Rock With You (Single Version)^
25. Trouble (Unreleased Demo)
26. Off The Wall (Single Version)^
27. Butterflies
28. For All Time (Unreleased Track)^
29. Get On The Floor
30. Childhood (Theme From "Free Willy 2")*
31. Heaven Can Wait
32. Ghosts (Extended Version)
33. Tabloid Junkie
34. HIStory (Tony Moran's History Lesson)
35. Unbreakable
36. You Rock My World
37. Love Never Felt So Good (Unreleased Demo)^
38. Smile*
39. Blood On the Dance Floor
40. What You Don't Know
41. Burn This Disco Out
42. Hot Street (Unreleased Demo)
43. Is It Scary
44. If You Don't Love Me (Unreleased Demo)
45. Nite Line (Unreleased Track)^
46. Morphine

Bonus Tracks
1. We Are The World (Demo Version)
2. State of Shock (Demo w/ Freddie Mercury)
3. Jackson 5 Medley (LIVE from the Bad Tour 88')
4. Off The Wall Medley (LIVE from the HIStory Tour 97')

* MJ's personal favorites
^ She's Not Famous Recommended

Southeast Slim ft. Wale & UCB - Shake Ya Plaits

2009-06-07T20:59:00.002-04:00

This is the only video with synchronized dancing I will EVER cosign.

Southeast Slim "Shake Ya Plaits" from ACPMEDIA.TV on Vimeo.

Seven Whole Days.

2009-06-02T01:15:00.003-04:00

The story of my life. Well, of my love life.

Seven Whole Days - Toni Braxton

_{I post everything for a reason. I just don't make the reasons clear at first. I would explain but I don't feel like it right now. *shrugs* Oh well.}

I Love Stuff Like This

2009-05-24T23:58:00.003-04:00

x Cleopatra's Needle [obelisk in New York]

There are three Cleopatra's Needles: in London, Paris and New York City. Each obelisk is made of red granite, stands about 68 feet high, weighs about 180 tons and is inscribed with hieroglyphs. Although the needles are genuine Ancient Egyptian obelisks, they are somewhat misnamed as they have no inscriptions associated with queen Cleopatra VII of Egypt. They were originally erected in the Egyptian city of Heliopolis on the orders of Thutmose III, around 1450 B.C.E. The quarry from which the red granite was obtained was near Aswan. The inscriptions were added about 200 years later by Ramses II to commemorate his military victories. The obelisks were later moved to Alexandria and set up in the Caesarium — a temple built by Cleopatra (hence the name Cleopatra's Needle) in honor of Mark Antony — by the Romans, during the reign of Augustus Caesar, but were later toppled. The knocking down of the obelisks allowed them to be buried in sand, which helped preserve them from local weathering.

It's there..wasting away. If you want to..you can click that link above the picture.

Prime Example.

2009-05-22T03:37:00.003-04:00

This is exactly why I shouldn't be left alone with my thoughts. I look way WAY too into things. B, who is like my new bestfriend**, even told me that. He sets me up too so I'm not sure if I should really listen to anything he says anymore lol.

But anyway, I say all that to say this. Right now I'm feeling like I should be on some Trey Songz last time shit. Okay, maybe that's the wrong example but I feel like I wanna revert a little. It's kinda hard to fight this when it comes up.

Actually, it's really hard. Well..with that being said I just decided I'm gonna write my next part of Paraniod. Maybe next two parts. I'm in that kind of mood now. Yes at 3:52 in the morning.

Note: Never take a nap at 8PM.

**Not to replace Bestest.

Gin & Titonic.

2009-05-19T20:20:00.004-04:00

I have a friend who love Gin & Tonics. Naturally, I immediately thought of him when I saw this. Then I laughed. I mean it is a little funny. Just a little bit though.

It's still not on sale yet. I'm not even sure if it will be. I did my part by telling you though lol.You can check up on it here.

via Coolest Gadgets

House Warming Gifts

2009-05-19T15:38:00.005-04:00

Now, normally you wouldn 't get house warming gifts until a person is actually moving in to a new place BUT that's not how I roll.

What I do is make a list of everything I want ahead of time and have people "randomly" buy them for me. See, I figure that way when I actually move into a place and have a part nobody will have to buy anything and you can party in a fully furnished place. Great idea right? I know. With that being said...here are 2 things I want for my kitchen. Two of many.

The Ex Knife Holder
69.99 @ ThinkGeek.com

Ice Invaders Ice Cube Tray
7.49 @ ThinkGeek.com

Paranoid Part II: The Tomboy Phase

2009-05-05T22:53:00.004-04:00

The Tomboy Phase

Wearing jeans and dirty sneakers exclusively. Not wanting to get my hair done. Riding bikes through the woods. Go-karts. Racing. Listening in on the male conversations. Playing my brother in video games AND beating him. I miss that stuff sometimes. That was me though pretty much all through elementary school to maybe part of middle school. In some weird, backwards way that was me trying to avoid extra attention from males because naturally I didn’t trust them. This is how I ended up more comfortable with having males for friends. Makes no sense but at the same time makes complete sense.

I kind of still don’t actually fully trust most of the females I know. That's mostly because I know most of them will tell you one thing knowing the whole time they're planning on doing something else. I don’t trust any of them to really keep anything to themselves. Yeah, sometimes I may not be able to find out they told something but I’m almost positive they told at least one person. Even in elementary school I think I had one female best friend sometime between kindergarten and 3rd grade. LOL. I honestly don’t even remember. All I remember is her name was Ashley. She found me on facebook a while back...but I digress. Back in elementary school I never really wanted to be friends with the girls. I mean they were cool but I wasn’t as self conscious around males as I was around females. People don’t believe me when I say that but it’s true. Being friends with the prissy girls only meant trying to be cute, being way too extra and begging for attention and trying to impress the dudes that I didn’t want looking at me that way. I mean yeah I started to like a couple of them but I never actually wanted any of them. Not until middle school at least.

Middle school some new people were in the neighborhood and I’ve never admitted it but yeah I kind of had a crush on one of them. I’m not even sure why anymore because he wasn’t really attractive. I mean he was cool. He was funny. He was around. That’s about it. Now that I’m thinking about it though he wanted to be my first. I can’t help but laugh at that now. I actually considered it once and for all the wrong reasons. I’m glad I make good decisions for the most part lol. Anyway, people thought I was jealous when he kind of chilled on me and started talking to a much less attractive girl that had also moved into the neighborhood. I wasn’t jealous in the least. That bitch was ugly and still is. He also showed interest in one of my friends back then. I was a girl. I wasn’t stupid. I seriously think that he started liking them once he found out how much of a tomboy I actually was. He showed interest when I was being a little girly and once he found out that wasn’t me he went for the prissy ones who couldn’t do shit. I was cool with that. I’m not going to change how I am to conform for anybody else’s satisfaction. No sir. I think that’s kind of why my relationships (if that’s what you want to call them) go the way they do.

Coming Tomorrow… Part 3 | The "Relationships"

Paranoid.

2009-05-04T14:00:00.006-04:00

I've been working on this big long drawn out "novel" as B likes to call it. It's not really a novel though. More like me just getting a few things off of my chest that I normally wouldn't say. A little of it might be a little harsh. A little of it may be a little more than some people were expecting.

My movitation for this? Honestly, watching Brave New Voices. I've always loved spoken word. Always. I just suck at writing in iambic pentameter and all that. I'm much better at holding everything in for years and then one day going "Fuck it and fuck you. This is how I feel" No seriously, I'm doing this mostly because I've noticed I'm falling back into my stressed out, pissed all the time, highly irratble self. That shit is not cool. I'm not really happy. I mean I'm cool but having every little thing piss you off? Not cool.

See there's a whole lot of stuff I keep in and I know that's not healthy it's just easy. The way I see it..if I can get this stuff out then maybe it'll help. Maybe. I’m not absolutely positive it will work but as cliché as this is going to sound life really is short and it’s not really worth it if there are no risks involved.

With that being said, I must warn a few of you that may be reading this: there will be sections dedicated to a couple people I’m currently involved with or have been involved with in the past that will be of no interest to you. Names will be mentioned (all except one). Nobody knows who you people are so don't trip. I’ll warn you about that ahead of time as well.

There are 3 sections and the last part has about 6 sub-sections (don't get scared away now). They come one at a time and each one is just like a little history with a specific person and then the letter directly to that person.

So umm...yeah..

Paranoid.

My best friend say I’m bottled up, I need a fucking therapist But I can’t think of nobody I’d wanna to share this with. Why should I open up on somebody else’s carelessness? There goes the top niggas so here it is…

The "Incident”
I was a reserved kid when I was younger. Very reserved. I’m not sure what caused it originally but I know it lasted way longer than it should have. I mean I had friends and all that nonsense but I wasn’t as voicstrous as I am now about my opinions on things. I think I remember trying to break out of it at one point and then the incident happened.

The incident.

I can’t even really call it an incident because incidents (let me say that one more time. Incident. Okay) only happen once. This went on over a period of time. Now, before I say this let me say that it’ll be a big step for me because only 3 people know about this. Two of them were involved. One of them was me. Okay. A long time ago my mom used to send my sister and me next door so that her friend’s mother could watch us. Now this lady never really watched us. I remember the characters of As The World Turns and Oprah watching us more than she actually did. I actually remember her sleeping a lot too.

Word of advice. Never let anybody else’s old ass mom watch your kids. They never
really care as much as somebody that has an actual connection to you. No matter how nice they seem. So anyway two teenagers also lived in the house. The daughter of my mom’s friend (one who eventually ended up watching us later) and her brother. While the old lady was “watching” me I would sometimes get passed off or left with the brother. This is where the incident comes in. I’m not going to get into too many details but I will say that there was …how do I want to say this… basically he molested me and at the time I didn’t really know better. I didn’t know what was wrong or right about the situation really and I didn’t find out until much later. This made me hate him. I still hate him to this day. I never forgot. I don’t think I ever will. I actually cared about his sister. I can now say that I think I may have loved his sister for all she did for me. I looked up to her. I think I wanted to be like her for a little while. She actually caught her brother in the act once and from what remember she ousted him in front of his mother and my mother and they brushed it off. I think they actually didn’t believe her or something like that. Maybe she didn’t see what she think she saw. Maybe she was just angry at him. I mean I never said anything so it didn’t happen right? That’s bullshit. I’m actually getting angrier the more I think about it. I’m getting off track…

Anyway, she died in a car accident a while back. Years later I found out that he was in a really bad car accident and could have died. I remember immediately thinking, “That’s what he gets. …Fuck. He didn’t die?” I thought that because it meant the possibility of running into him was still there and I honestly don’t know how I’d react if I ever saw him again. I wouldn’t be able to be held accountable for my actions. I never understood how people who had traumatic things happen to them could be like, “Oh. I forgive him because he knew not what he did” or “I can’t blame him. I forgive him.” I say FUCK that forgiveness shit. I’m fucked up for possibly the rest of my life and you get to be at peace for yours because I forgave you? FUCK that shit. FUCK your life.

This wasn’t the only thing that I’ve held in forever that I think has slowly fucked up my way of thinking but I think maybe it had a hell of a lot to do with it. Maybe that’s why I get so angry so quickly. Maybe that’s why my sexuality is the way it is. I don’t know. I’m not sure. I can’t say.

You know why I think I don’t tell anybody I get close to this? I don’t want to scare dudes away with this information because a lot of the time girls who’ve had stuff like this happen to them are always crazy...or potentially crazy. I don’t want people sympathizing with me or feeling like they have to talk different around me or treat me any differently. My problems didn’t come out as crazy. Mine came out as anger. Pent up anger. Maybe that’s why I snap so quickly. Maybe that’s why I curse so much. Maybe. Maybe in some backwards way that made me want to be a boy, or at least act like one, for a good part of my childhood.

Coming Tomorrow… Part 2 | The Tomboy Phase

Where The Wild Things Are | Transformers 2 Trailers

2009-03-25T22:45:00.004-04:00

Where The Wild Things Are.

Transformers 2 : Revenge Of The Fallen

*There's extra time on this one but it looks the best out of the other videos.

_{Side Bar: I think I saw one of the ones from Beast Wars...and the insects..and technically Bumblebee should be the Volt but I'm not complaining lol.}

These movies are thee definition of nostalgia. I feel like a kid again. I'm that excited for both of them.

Keri Hilson x Kanye West x Ne-Yo

2009-03-25T22:05:00.003-04:00

I love her. Everybody knows how I feel about Kanye...my Kanye lol. As for Ne-Yo...no comment.

For The Record: I don't think choosing between Kanye & Ne-Yo is a hard decision at all. At all.

Kidrobot | Karmaloop | Vans

2009-03-25T19:58:00.006-04:00

All of the above are having some type of sale. I figured I'd share.

Karmaloop.

They're having a sale on their Kazbah items (up to 40% off). There's some pretty good stuff there. Shop now.

They're also offering free shipping on all they're new items in for spring. Use the code: GOGREEN.

Extra | You can get $20 off a $75 purchase with the code LKR5EQ or 20% off with the Rep code so12621.

Kidrobot.

They're having a somewhat secret sale. 30% off select items. It's not promoted on the site you can only get there from this link. If there's a store close to you just go in and mention the word spring to a staff member. Sale ends this Friday, March 27th though. So be quick about it.

Vans*.

Apparently, the Vans.com website went down recently and to make up for it they're offering 20% off of EVERYTHING with the coupon code: SORRY09. That promotion starts tomorrow (26^th and ends the 29^th.

*via Simply Sneakers. Follow them on Twitter.

Wale 2009 Tour Dates

2009-03-24T21:18:00.004-04:00

Wale (one of my favorite rappers by the way) announced his album title not too long ago via twitter. Attention Deficit. Cool. He also announced he'd be going on tour. Now every single time he has a show somewhere something happens where I can't go. Every time. You have no idea how much of a blower that is lol.

With that being said here are the tour dates as posted on his myspace.

Mar 25 2009 4:00P
Wale @ WMC Miami, Florida

Mar 26 2009 8:00P
Wale @ WMC Miami, Florida

Mar 27 2009 8:00P
The Loft with Wale x UCB with special guest B.O.B. Atlanta, GA

Apr 1 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Syracuse University Syracuse, New York

Apr 2 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ University of Vermont Burlington, Vermont

Apr 3 2009 4:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Bowdoin College Brunswick, Maine

Apr 4 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Portland, Maine

Apr 8 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Winchester, Virginia

Apr 9 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Richmond, Virginia

Apr 10 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB College, Pennsylvania

Apr 20 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Jakes (University of Indiana) Bloomington, Indiana

Apr 21 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Peoria, Illinois

Apr 22 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Urbana, Illinois

Apr 24 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Cleveland, Ohio

Apr 25 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Canton, New York

Apr 26 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Toronto, Ontario

Apr 28 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB New Haven, Connecticut

May 1 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Sacramento, California

May 2 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Riverside, California

May 3 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB San Francisco, California

May 4 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB San Diego, California

May 5 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Scottsdale, Arizona

May 8 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Milton, Massachusetts

May 8 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Boston, Massachusetts

May 12 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Norfolk, Virginia

May 16 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Carlton College Northfield, Minnesota

Aug 13 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Oya Festival Middelalderparken, Oslo

Try to make at least one of em. I'm gonna try..extra hard this time. No show in DC though?

Tabi Bonney x Jetsetter Photos & Video

2009-03-24T20:44:00.005-04:00

URB Magazine has a couple pictures up on their site of the video for Tabi's Jetsetter video he recently filmed in DC. You can see the rest here and a quick behind the scenes video below.

Follow @tabibonney & @URBMAG on Twitter.

Art Whino x Licorice Tree "Emotional" Plush Art Show

2009-03-04T13:46:00.006-05:00

Art Whino & Licorice Tree are coming together to have an all plush art show.

.DMV ARTIST. If you want to submit anything to the show you still can. There's a $20 entrance fee and the deadline is May 1st. There's no size requirement and the maximum amount of entries is 4. The artist that are featured in the show will also be featured in a book to accompany it. Do it! lol.

The show will open July 11^th and run until August 11^th

You can get all the details here.

Be sure to visit Mortal Plush & Art Whino at their blogs.

Back Down Memory Lane...

2009-02-18T00:17:00.003-05:00

I mentioned in my "25 Things..." list that I was in college for Graphic Design. Well, that was only because I couldn't decide what I wanted my major to be and I did some little amatuer graphics as a hobby for personal sites & stuff people asked me to do because for some reason they thought I was good at it. lol

Anywho, I was just going through the stuff on my ancient photobucket account and decided to share. No laughing. I did pretty good considering I taught myself back then.

Wow, I had to be like 15 or something when I did some of these. SMH.

Remember My Rubberband Ball?

2009-02-05T18:03:00.001-05:00

Well that's what I do when I get bored at work now.

25 Things You Could Care Less About.

2009-02-05T01:40:00.001-05:00

I started my 25 things you didn't know about me list on Twitter. I decided not to finish there because I started to notice a theme. That's not what I was going for. That and I want to be able to explain more. Soooo....

1. I've lived in the same house, in the same room, my whole life. Now do you see why I want to move so bad? I actually still have a scarf I've had since I was like 4.

2. Most of the time, I don't think anything is done right unless I do it.

3. I have this problem where I'm hardly ever attracted to someone from the same place as me. If two people are exactly the same & one is from PG County and one is from Cali...I'm going for the Cali dude.

4. I have an addiction. One that is sexual in nature. My mindset as far as that goes is almost all male. Seriously, I think about it way more than dudes do. If I don't mention it that much it's probably because I don't want it to seem like that's all I think about. Even though it is.

5. I have issues telling people I love them. My sister just realized today I've never said that to her. I actually got nausea & dizzy when I had to say it to my grandmother once. Somebody can say it and all I'll say is "No you don't" Either that or that Heartbreak Kid scene where he just goes "Love, Love, Love"

6. I used to say I'd never get married. Now I say maybe. Even though I don't want to get married I say maybe because I have a fear of being old and alone.

7. People tell me I'm pretty/beautiful ALL THE TIME. Sometimes I see it sometimes I don't. Actually, that was a while ago. I always see it now. Every damn day lol.

8. I was a tomboy through most of my childhood. I think up until part of middle school. That's probably why I much rather prefer the company of males to females.

9. I lied to the people I've been with about how good they were in bed. Except one person. He's the only one who's actually good. I wait for it. I'd rather have good sex months between than to have bad sex on the regular. The only reason I probably kept going back is because of that addiction thing I mentioned earlier.

10. I have periods where I curse like a sailor. Maybe worse. Fuck it. I don't care. If you don't like it that's a personal problem.

11. I have a thing for tall dudes with glasses. e.g. Lu, my ex, the dude I wanted from work, my situationship... I don't know what it is.

12. I believe all men should know about cars, football, music & shoes other than Jordans. Things I care about? Cars, basketball, music, art, sex, food & shoes. Not necessarily in that order. Music is before cars.

13. I rarely give a fuck. Take that how you want to.

14. I was in school for graphic design. I'm actually really artsy/artistic. Just not on command.

15. I love sneakers. I just love heels more. I feel better in them. It's just sometimes hard to choose. That and most of mine you can't wear in the winter.

16. I have thee biggest birth mark ever. It covers one of my legs almost completely causing my legs to be two different colors.

17. I didn't wear shorts, skirts, or dresses until high school because of that. You can't keep me out of them now.

18. I think South Park is funnier than Family Guy.

19. I want to live in L.A. but only for like 3 months.

20. I used to want to be a production engineer. Bad. I thought about being a DJ too.. I'm too reserved for that though.

21. You probably won't know when I'm mad at you or cut you off until you're sitting around and realize I haven't talked to you in a month. If it gets to that point I'm beyond explaining to you why it happened.

22. I have an older sibling I've never met. I have no interest in meeting her now either.

23. I love lingerie. If you saw me in it you would to.

24. Michael from Good Times is my cousin. No bullshit. On my dad's side.

25. I will probably give you more useless information about me very soon.

House Hunting.

2009-01-28T16:14:00.001-05:00

I went with my mom the other day when she went house hunting. All my house hunting takes place on Craigs List right now...anyway...

We saw some really nice ones and some were crappy. Well, not really, I just didn't like how they were decorated. This one house though...it had the best game room ever because those were there. They were paintedon the wall and frames were put around them. There was more but those were my favorite.

"I'm Dragging Out My Words For You"

2009-01-12T11:35:00.001-05:00

LOL. I love this song too. I was meaning to post this up a while ago but kept forgetting. Until today.

Turbo - iTHINKi

My Favorite Song...

2009-01-11T22:29:00.002-05:00

...From a Disney movie, lol.

I love Fiona Apple.

I love Amy Lee.

...and there was the thought process behind this sort of pointless post. Fuck that. It's for me so it isn't pointless..I guess, lol.

Untitled. 2.

2009-01-10T21:00:00.001-05:00

I just got back from Philly a couple hours ago and like every other time I immediately want to go back.

I really would have rather stayed until Sunday but I couldn't get out of work. Bullshit. The reasons were bullshit and I don't feel like explaining.

Anyway, I had fun. I always do. All I do is eat, sleep and have...fun watching tv & movies all day. I don't get that very often here. It's great to sleep with no interruptions or somebody coming in to ask for or look for something.

So for some reason I'm more motivated than normal to get out of here. I think it's not so much where I'm going it's just the fact that I'm going.

There are perks to 'going' but still the perks aren't my main reasons.

With that being said...even with all my 'rest' I'm ridiculously tired so it's off to sleep early for me.

Woo-Hoo!

2009-01-05T21:02:00.001-05:00

I just got those in the mail today.

They make my feet look a tad bit on the big side but I'm thinking about keeping them anyway.

Yes? No? Maybe?

It's Just A Metaphor...

2009-01-02T01:12:00.004-05:00

My hormones have been way more active than they should be lately. For like...at least a good month...LOL.

Anyway, the other song I can't stop listening to.

Crown Royal - Jill Scott

I Was Out Of Your League.

2008-12-31T00:40:00.002-05:00

I have a couple new favorite songs. Thanks to Pandora.

This is one of them. My new theme song.

True Affection - The Blow

I was kidding about the theme song thing. lol.

Sooo

2008-12-29T01:02:00.004-05:00

I have a problem

I'm supposed to be looking for a car and guess what I'm doing. Shopping.

Karmaloop is having a sale. 60% off entire order. ...for the next 20 something hours. Good shit. Move quick.

Help me work through my problem by getting this stuff for me.

Supra Golden State Ltd. Ed. Muska Skytop

$115

Adidas Attitude Hi in White & Copper

$66

Hellz Bellz Riding High T-Shirt

$38

e.5.charlie Smoking Gun T-Shirt

$32

Obey Chuck D T-Shirt

$26

Ignorant Shit.

2008-12-22T13:48:00.001-05:00

First Family Bottled Water. $2.50

This is ridiculous.

Back To Basics.

2008-12-21T11:53:00.001-05:00

Normally that would be a good thing. Right?

Bestest. We need to talk. Thanks.

Talking Wreckless.

2008-12-20T15:39:00.001-05:00

My mother used to tell me I spoke without thinking about what other people would think. I didn't think about consequences or feelings.

I've been doing a whole lot of that lately. The bad part is I don't realize I'm doing it until it's too late.

That can't be good.

Consistency is Key.

2008-12-19T22:37:00.001-05:00

Especially when picking a suitor.

Yes. I said suitor.

Take me for example. I consistently pick the wrong dudes to talk to. Everything looks great at first but eventually, every single time, things change and it's back to square one.

This is also why you should always have somebody on stand-by....or that weekend nigga. Sorry Andre. Lol.

BUT I'm consistent and that's all that matters.

Brain Is For Lovers.

2008-12-18T00:48:00.001-05:00

...sure is. lls. Brain is my shit.....the song...

Thats on one of my shirts I bought at that N.E.R.D. concert I went to a while back too.

It is true though...slightly. Depends on what "lovers" means to you, lol.

"Do I really even love you? Or do I really love your brain" lol...my shit...

Anyway, I will probably sound extremely concieted, drawn, gassed or whatever you wanna call it when I say this but...

I'm too nice for as cute as I am.

No bullshit. That has to be it. I mean, as my friend would say, 'I ain't the best looking bitch in the world but what the fuck?' Seriously, niggas must be used to decent looking females being stuck up or something.

Why do I say this? Where is all this coming from?

Well, I've looked at my track record. Dudes seem to take my being 'cool as shit' for granted. I tend to lose interest in dudes extremely quick. If it seems like I've been talking to somebody for a while there's probably something making me want to stick around..at least for a couple more days or something.

But dudes take me being nice, or wanting to talk about absolutely nothing as me being clingy or something when that's so not the case.

Yes, I do tend to get slightly (okay extremely) goofy when it's somebody I do like and that can come off wrong. I understand that but what the hell man?! Lol.

I'm giving up soon.

So basically I just ranted and rambled because I was thinking about my current situation and how a dude I used to talk to took all the stuff I did for him for granted.

Now he's talking all this I want you back bullshit. No sir. Thanks but no thanks.

I Changed My Mind...

2008-12-13T23:38:00.006-05:00

About what? About not wanting anything for Christmas but a laptop.

It's a little last minute I know but you still have time. I don't even need it by Christmas day.

I want this coat.

It's on Digital Gravel. It's $154. There's free shipping for orders over $100 so there you go. There's one XS left. Act fast.

Damn You Gmail!

2008-12-13T23:07:00.004-05:00

I have TWO gmail accounts. I blog with one and get personal emails and solicitations on the other. Just because I sign in with one it doesn't mean I want to automatically sign out of the other one.

Moving on...

I just got a newsletter from NOOKA. I'm in love.

SIDE NOTE: It's not swagger jackin' in this situation. You put me on to it. That's all. LOL.

Anyway, they had a kind of teaser picture at the end that said Coming Soon...

I want one. Somehow.

There was more but I'll have to get back to that later.

Quick Question.

2008-12-13T01:30:00.003-05:00

Have you ever wanted to tell somebody something but didn't because you didn't want to boost their ego any farther?

I'm battling with a situation like that now.

I wanna tell somebody something about what happens...I'm not gonna go into detail about it because I'd kind of be telling them but yeah. I'm not trying to sice him or anything but I think he'd want to know this. It's kind of important information. Oh well.

Anyway, I've been on my random blog search for the last 20 minutes. I've been going through the followers of The Lupe Fiasco Show. There's some pretty decent blogs following them. Cool people. It seems.

I think I might link the ones I like here. I'm still deciding on that too.

Coming Soon...

2008-12-07T22:16:00.001-05:00

Video from the show...

How Professional.

2008-12-06T14:03:00.003-05:00

I rented a car from Enterprise down the street from me to go to the Lupe show in College Park this Friday. It was a Dodge Caliber (which are really nice by the way)..

A guy named Patrick took the return for me after I had to wait a while but he makes small talk with me and ask me what it's like working at the resort. My first reaction was how the hell but then I remembered I had to give them a pay stub...

So, after I turn it in I get all the way home and then 20 minutes after I'm in the house I get a random text from a New York number that says "NICE BOOTS!"

I'm assuming it's somebody I met at the show or hotel or something so I go, "umm thanks..who is this?"

Guess who the fuck it was....

Yes. It was fucking Patrick from the Enterprise. He took my number off of my paperwork and texted me. Who the fuck does that?

Can't you get fired for that type of stuff? How professional is that?

That took heart though because I could have easily carried the shit out of him..I've been real hostile lately, I should have. LOL.

I just said, 'oh wow okay' and he ask me should he keep my number.

Seriously though?

If I didn't give you my number then I didn't want you to have it. You can't steal a girls number. That's cheating. Then you use a weak starter line like nice boots. Really?

Sorry sir, but you lose.

I would still recommend Enterprise to any and everybody. They're really nice up there. Sometimes too nice but whatever..

Another Eventful Lupe Show

2008-12-06T13:27:00.005-05:00

So, if I was to describe my weekend so far in a nutshell it would go like this.

Went to College Park. Chilled in the hotel with everybody. Matty and Bam are hilarious. Got some Potbelly's with Mars, Keena, & Megan. Back to the hotel. Went to the Lupe show at UMD College Park. Got backstage at a sold out show. Backstage sucks though I would much rather have gotten a ticket and been in the front. Lu was great. I can go to a bunch of shows because something different always happens. An example would be Lu trying to take off his shirt and getting stuck in it. Another example would be tossing his shoes in the crowd. Chilled with 1/3 of Hey Champ. Met some groupies. I'm so not down with the whole looking like I'm with the groupies shit so I had to vacate.

Speaking of groupies.... I want to take this time out to acknowledge the group of girls and one guy that followed us back from the show with their headlights off like they were on some stakeout mission or private eye shit or something. THEN they were bold enough to come up in the hotel and be like, "So we wanna know where Lupe is" Really? Did you really think we were gonna be like, "Oh sure, he's right down the hall. His door should be open why don't you just walk on in?" That was some bold shit though.

After that...we went back and forth trying to figure out if we were going to stay in the hotel, go to IHOP or go to the bar. Everybody split up and all three were done. I haven't had much sleep so the rest is kind of a blur.

Lastly, Matty...I want my damn Hey Champ shirt..AND my Kenna cd, lol. Make that happen. Thanks.

You know what you should do though? Go here:

KayCee
Hey Champ
Bam
Bishop
Lupe Fiasco Show

Next Up: How NOT to get a girls number.

Can I Get Me Some Satisfaction?

2008-12-02T23:04:00.003-05:00

Songs I Can't Stop Listening To...

List 1 of 3.

1. John Legend x Satisfaction
"You don't love me like you say you do. You don't want me the way that I want you"
"I wonder, wonder, wonder why your eyes they wander"

2. Kanye West x See You In My Nightmares
"Tell everybody that you know that I don't love you no more"
"I might see you in my nightmares. But how do you get there? Cause we were once a fairy tale but this is farewell"

3. Solange x Would've Been The One
Look up the words to the whole song.

4. Kenna x Static
" Don't know if I want you to understand me...or go"
"To love and let go was never the design"
"Love come and bless me, show me how to feel. I've been here a time before and it wasn't real"

5. Gnarls Barkley x Charity Case
"If I help somebody maybe there's mercy for me"
"I don't understand how I'm so understanding. I guess that that's all I can be"

6. John Legend x Good Morning
"Before you get into the shower. Before you worry 'bout your hair. Baby give me one more hour. I want you to stay right there. I don't wanna lose a moment. I don't wanna miss a kiss. If I could plan a perfect day, Love I would start it just like this...Good Morning"

7. Kanye West x Say You Will
"Mrs. So Fly crash lands in my room. Can't waste no time. She might leave soon"
"Hey Hey Hey Hey. Don't say you will. One day you will. I pray you will"
"I wish this song would really come true"

8. N.E.R.D. x Breakout
"All you can be is just you cause you're real not the plastic type. But reality sets and you're stuck in this plastic life"
"Shit happens. Just blow it off. But don't it make you feel rage?"

9. Gnarls Barkley x Going On
"You can stand right there if you want, I'm going on and I'm prepared to go it alone"
"I'm going on and I promise I'll be waiting for you"

10. N.E.R.D. x The Way She Dances
"When your eyes are closed I hope I'm the man you see. Cause if not, I want you to know tonight I plan to be"
"When sparks fly, I think that's love"

11. Solange x I Told You So
"The longer we go I know the fire will start to fade, fade, fade. I may be walking too long for this race. I know you said that you won't do the same. So I'm writing this song so the day I see I'm right I'll play this record with a smirk while I say...I told you so"
"I know you think you love me, but love ain't never stopped nobody from creeping around every once in a while when things start to settle down. And so I won't look like a clown I'm gon' call it now"

12. Kenna x Sun Red, Sky Blue
"Underneath your skin again. Right below your innocence. I can tell you're hesitant. Let me heal the heart of it, my love"
"I believe I'd taken flight with wings of wax and heart of ice. Melted by your blessed eyes, angel hear my cries"

5 Things You May Not Know...

2008-12-02T02:03:00.001-05:00

About Me.

x. I love South Park.
x. I tend to stay awake more hours than I sleep.
x. I tend to date and/or talk to dudes with the same last name. Not on purpose though..it's weird.
x. I majored in graphic design at Bowie State.
x. I'd pick the Redskins over the Cowboys any day.

Oh, and as a bonus,...

I counted yesterday, I have 41 pairs of shoes. That's not counting the ones I boxed away a while back....i know there's more somewhere.

How To Play Yourself.

2008-12-01T23:41:00.001-05:00

For as long as I can remember dudes have always thought they were slicker than me.

Some still do. This could not be further from the truth. Even if I don't say anything...I still know. Remember that. I always find out. Always.

With that being said...

How To Play Yourself. Part I.

This is the story...

*Ronnie called himself trying to talk to me for a while. From what I hear I'm pretty so he's not the only one. Anyway, a little after that he was kind of talking to somebody else I know...

He doesn't know I knew that.

To shorten the story up, she eventually was taken out of the picture do to unforseen circumstances. Guess what happened after that. He asked for my number. So I gave it to him because I wanted to see how he was gonna try and play this. I had no intrest. Somebody else had my attention at the moment. So after a couple conversations I stopped. I have to really like you to want to keep up contact and have casual random conversations with you.

But how did he play himself? That's what you wanna know right? Well...

I was in a stall at work and I hear a girl come in and say,

"Yeah she called from a restricted number and I didn't answer so she called back and then I answered"

So I'm like whatever..another one of these..then I hear...

"So she asked me 'do you talk to Ronnie?'"

At this point I'm fully into the conversation...

"So I told her 'yeah who is this?' and she said 'I'm his baby's mother'"

The conversation goes on and I find out the girl doesn't know how the mother got her number (his phone, duh), she has been talking to him for a month and the baby mama has been on and off with him for 3 years. She said she lives with him but that may or not be true because she may have been lying...according to the girl.

But..

Trying to play me is one of the many ways you play yourself, sir.

*So Ronnie clearly isn't his name. His name isn't that common. That's why the chances of the girl at the same job as me talking about the same "Ronnie" that also has a kid (I'd heard that before) are better than the odds of it not being him.

There's much more to this story but...I'm typing on a phone. We all know how efficient and comfortable that is.

How To Play Yourself. Part I.

2008-11-30T13:22:00.001-05:00

Coming Soon...

"Don't play yaself like Solitaire"

--Lupe Fiasco

Yet Another Reason Why...

2008-11-24T23:35:00.001-05:00

I love my friends. Don't you wish you had friends like mine?

So Much To Say....

2008-11-24T02:02:00.001-05:00

...so little I can actually let out.

I'm sparing peoples feelings again and trying not to let certain personal things and sensitive information out but it's really hurting me.

Well, that's gonna be my excuse.

It's late so I'll be posting more on this later.

In other news...I want a NOOKA watch now.

I LOVE My Friends.

2008-11-20T18:43:00.001-05:00

Bestest especially.

Remember my first list? If you do you should recognize 2 of 4 things in the picture.

Bestest got me one of the dunny's (toofly) and the ol master ninja in the back.

I also have the 2 Tokidoki posters. I love my bestest, lol.

You too could be like him. There is still time.

Yes, the rest of the list so far are slightly expensive but you shoulda picked early. That's what you get for slackin'.

Actually, one thing from either list would make ne just as happy...well I think it would.

I Thought This Was Funny...

2008-11-18T20:51:00.003-05:00

I was gonna say that it was hilarious because I actually did laugh out loud when I read it...

Specifically what Wale says.

XXL: The internet has been such an important tool for rappers in the past few years, particularly this young generation of rappers. How have you guys used the Internet to your advantage.

Charles Hamilton: ....I have a blog. I talk a lot of shit on my blog. I don't care. It's my blog. If I do an interview with hip-hopgame.com and say rapper X is a retard and doesn't write his own shit, I will say that I said that because I felt like saying that and you can read this article at hip-hopgame.com....

Cory Gunz: I look at [message boards] as feedback. I go off of how the average dude will look at what somebody write about them on the internet and take offense to it...I take that and turn it into something positive.

Wale: My skin is not that thick. If I see somebody joning, I'm like, How the fuck do I get this nigga's IP address?

Kid Cudi: Have you ever traced somebody down?

Wale: Have I ever traced somebody down? I've done it. You'd be surprised what you seen on that shit.

I got a few people I'd like to track down...lol.

I'm Gonna Go Ahead & Apologize...

2008-11-10T04:43:00.001-05:00

Only for the last post...

I don't do that very often...

I felt like I ha-- not have to but kind of need to because that was kind of OC. I'm not gonna lie and say I wasn't still slightly salty about the whole thing but when you smell BS you just don't sit there and take the shit right? You do something about it.

Ask questions later.

...Did I just apologize without actually apologizing?

Words of Advice...

2008-11-09T11:58:00.001-05:00

If you're gonna bam out and do some weak ass shit with a weak ass excuse don't leave valuables behind....

Anybody want a new watch? lmao...

You might wanna come get that...

FUCK YEAH!!!!

2008-11-04T23:04:00.001-05:00

Im about to fuckin cry over here no bull.

I cant explain how excited I am. This is the happiest I've been for somebody else.

We got a fuckin BLACK president.

I'm Not Tryna Jinx Anything....

2008-11-04T22:49:00.001-05:00

BUT 220 to 138 is looking awfully good right about now.

...all this while I sit and listen to N.E.R.D. on my Zune while watching CNN & Fox.

I know you thought you're life was gon' be easy...you thought you had it all...but you found out you were wrong...

Judgement Day.

2008-11-04T07:42:00.001-05:00

Luckily my voting place is right next to my neighborhood but we are still in my neighborhood in that picture. The line is that long. I'm not even at the end.

Part 3.

2008-11-02T19:55:00.005-05:00

The Shoes.

Supra Black & Purple Croc Skytop.

109.95

Black & Croc Supra Skytop

99.95

Skytop Blue Suede Shoe

104.95

Supra Vaider Purple

94.95

Oh and these...

Vans Wellesley Black & Denim

54.95

_{Available at Zumiez.}

I think I Found Your Gift.

2008-11-02T19:42:00.005-05:00

Timberland-inspired Skytops.

Yes? No? Maybe?

_{via Complex}.

The Source, November 2008

2008-11-02T19:06:00.002-05:00

I'm not imagining things right? Lupe's name is on the cover right? I got got.

If anybody finds Lupe even mentioned in that magazine please let me know.

This is not helping their reputation with me, lol.

Lupe Fiasco, Pole Dancing & Halloween Parties

2008-11-01T00:58:00.002-04:00

All parts of my fun-filled weekend in the Chi.

I'll elaborate later.

Part 2?

2008-10-30T20:52:00.004-04:00

I should be packing seeing as how I leave to catch the shuttle to the airport for Chicago for my Lupe show in a couple hours..I mean it seem like a long time but I have a whole lot left to do.

Anyway...the pictures are terrible but...

Breathe No. 19 Tranquil Bubble Bath.
$32.

Relax No. 9 Evening Bubble Bath.
$32

Breathe No. 19 Petite Luminary.
$32

Relax No. 9 Petite Luminary.
$32

Relax No. 9 Shea Butter Handcreme
$24

Inspire Special Reserve Glass Luminary
$102

_{YOU can get all of this at Lollia Life.}

HELL YEAH!

2008-10-23T19:26:00.002-04:00

Got those babies today lol. Tickets for the Chicago show.

Guess what else. I've never been on a plane before. Ever.

I don't think I've ever even been inside an airport.

So, I'm addicted...

2008-10-22T22:12:00.001-04:00

...to a lot of things...

Actually it's about 4 things I can think of straight off the top.

They include tea, music (Lu especially lol) and art....among other things... and now Twitter is one of them. It caught on quick and I can't stop. It's crazy.

twitter.com/KadeejiaDenise

I'M GOING TO CHICAGO!

2008-10-20T02:13:00.002-04:00

After much contemplation (along with struggling & begging) I am going to Chicago this Halloween. I will be seeing The Lupe Fiasco Show...again.

It'll also be my first time in Chicago. Pray for me.

Not because I'm going to Chicago but because I may not have somewhere to stay when I get back, lol.

Seriously though...

The List.

2008-10-17T23:09:00.004-04:00

I will be occasionally dropping hints and just throwing out there things I may want for my birthday and or Christmas. This is the only one that will actually be titled The List. So watch for the tags.

So..

Dunny Series 5: Toofly
8.99

Dunny French Series: Tilt
12.99

Tokidoki Poster: Heaven & Hell
19.99 ea x x

Ninjatown : Pocket Ol' Master Ninja
20

_{All can be found at myplasticheart.}

That's My SHIT!

2008-10-17T23:00:00.001-04:00

I actually said that when I realized he was about to do this song...

You get the video somebody else posted. I couldn't get a video because...of reasons I don't feel like going into because it's gonna piss me off again.

I could have had the best pictures in the history of pictures ever... Exaggeration? Maybe.

Coulda woulda shoulda...

_{SIDENOTE: I'm mad at the dude that yelled 'I love you Lupe' Homo? Slightly.}

The Dangers of Sleepwalking.

2008-10-17T19:18:00.001-04:00

For about the last week my sleep cycle has been a little off. Im up
when I should be sleeping. I'm sleeping when I should be up. When I
do sleep I'm only sleep for about 4-5 hours. Six if I'm lucky.

Anyway, the other night I almost died because of it.

Okay I may be slightly exaggerating. This is what happened...

I had the urge to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night while
I was dreaming. I don't remember what I was dreaming about but the
next thing I do remember was being up and grabbing the door handle and
walking at the same time. I guess my mind wasn't fully where it
should have been yet because the next thing I know the corner of the
door and my face met in the dark. Hard.

After I almost knocked myself out I immediately (literally in the next
step) scratched my foot on a box outside my door.

I now have 3 bruises. All of which I caused myself. (The other one
is a hand injury I caused 3 days ago)

The spot where I hit my face is red and slightly swollen, my foot has
a big ugly bruise on it and my hand has a scratch on top of a bruise.

It's like I'm cursed or some kind of voodoo nonsense. This is getting
out of hand.

I've Decided...

2008-10-15T23:08:00.001-04:00

...that you are the him for meee! Oh boy! lls.

Seriously, I've decided what I want and what I want to do for my 21st.

Lupe Fiasco (yes, that guy again) is having a show Saturday, November 22nd in NY. The day of my birthday.

So, if any kind, thoughtful, caring, beautiful & beautifully generous person wants to go ahead and make that happen for me be my guest. It'd be greatly appreciative.

I need a rental car, a hotel room, and 2..maybe 3 tickets to the show.

Make that happen. The tickets go on sale on this Monday..the 20th at 10am.

And just because I care... I'll even help pay for some of it.

Thanks, I love you all.

lol.

Best Weekend Ever?

2008-10-13T22:55:00.005-04:00

I have a Top 5 Weekends of My Life list. Okay not really but I can remember 5 that really stand out. This last weekend just bumped the last one out. I'm not sure if it's number one but it is damn sure up there.

Okay, so two of these weekends involve Lupe of course and 2 more of them involve somebody else...but anyway...

I went to see Lupe this Saturday. Although the set was shorter than I would have liked it to be it was ridiculously great.

Seriously. lol.

I don't think I've ever seen anybody perform so..hard. I've never seen him so energetic. I kind of almost expected him to pass out from exhaustion. He was that gone. That show was the epitome of someone going into another zone when they performed.

KayCee, who is cool as shit by the way, posted a review of the concert and even though other ones are more detailed I think hers gives you the jist of what happened.

Some dude pissed on the floor and ....man this is gonna sound like a bad joke but I'll say it anyway...he ended up pissing everybody off around him and they got him kicked out. Hey, I warned you.

What else...Lu's opening act had a mascot who was almost as, if not more, entertaining than they were at some points. If anybody remembers what their name was and the name of that last song they did it'd be greatly
appreciated.

What else...oh..sound in the front wasn't all that great but at least I got to see everything without having to stand on my toes.

There was some groupie-like girls behind me and I think they had a part in trying to get the crowd to yell "Loopy". Of course that shit didn't fly. Even with half the people there not knowing who Lu was.

Even though I don't drink there are blocks of time that have been lost from that night so I may skip around in the events....ok..

So Lu apparently looked right at me at one point..somebody else told me this. Of course I didn't catch that. Bishop said KayCees name in his freestyle that I could barely hear up front and she didn't catch that at all lol, uhh Lu shouted out the blog right after he looked down at her. That got screams from random people. I also heard a guy behind me say that we "must be from the blog".

He was half right, lol.

I remember losing my voice for a second after yelling the words to
Sunshine, Paris, Tokyo, Kick Push, Daydreamin, I Gotcha, Superstar,
Hi-Definition, Dumb It Down, HHSML, & Go Go Gadget Flow. I think thats all of em
lol. [That's more than 7 songs by the way].

SIDENOTE: I loved the whole 'I love you' thing before Superstar. I'm
still singing it lol. AND I don't understand how once he said 'because you are..' people didn't see Superstar coming from a mile away. People in there sounded amazed once he said 'a superstar'afterwards. Seriously?

Anyway, apparently people are fans but can't tell Bishop from Gem,
Lupe has perfect timing, I'm 'skinny & pretty', vending machines DO
NOT take $5 bills, & pimples do come up the day before important
events just like in the movies and on tv.

I'm Moving.

2008-10-11T02:55:00.006-04:00

Not any time too soon.

Hopefully around this time next year I'll have a place and be in it. Hopefully in Philly. I can live by myself just not too far away from family.

Anyway, it's never to early to start preparing to move. With that being said...it's never to early to start buying me umm...house warming gifts. Yes, that's what I'll call them.

I want one of these 2 things for my bathroom. You could always get both so I could switch it up.

Sam Flores Shower Curtain by FIFTY24SF. $42.

Jeremy Fish Shower Curtain by FIFTY24SF. $42.

_{Both available at Digital Gravel.}^{Thanks in advance.}_{You guys are the best. lol.}

I'd So Wear This If I Was A Guy.

2008-10-11T02:13:00.004-04:00

"Target" T-shirt by Upper Playground. $25.

"Big Time Small Time" Shirt by 10Deep. $88.

"Man/Machine" Sweater by Mishka. $176.

Part 1.
_{All available on Digital Gravel.}

So...It's Been A While...

2008-10-11T00:06:00.003-04:00

75 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Stomach

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
gray

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Of Course

4.Do you plan outfits?
sometimes

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
in between tired and fully awake

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
the display on the cd player

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
aim

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
somebody asked me was my hair always blonde when it's the color it is now..brown.

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
not at all

10. What are you craving right now?
a Fruitista from Taco Bell

11. Do you floss?
when I remember

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
nasty

13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
years ago

14. Are you emotional?
I don't think so but I would think I could be

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
i dont even know what the taco song is.

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
in 20's yes.

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
the second one.

18. Do you like your hair?
most of the time.

19. Do you like yourself?
I think so.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
yeah. nobody important.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
not at all.

22. What are you listening to right now?
Wale - Kicks. It's actually just the ringer.

23. How many countries have you visited?
I've never been out of the country

24. Are your parents strict?
They used to be.

25. Would you go sky diving?
Not at all.

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Not at all.

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
If I just happened to have a bag of potatoes with me? Yes. Of course.

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
Nope. I don't do sparkly.

29. Have you ever been in a castle?
Nope.

30. Do you rent movies often?
Nope.

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
Don't have a math class anymore.

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
A long time ago.

33. Do you own a gun?
Do water guns count?

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
Yes. Why wouldn't I be able to?

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Nobody. Unfortunately.....

36. Brown or white eggs?
Neither.

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
I own a lot of stuff from Hot Topic. They have Hello Kitty.

38. Ever been on a train?
Yes.

39. Ever been in love?
I think so.

40. Do you have a cell-phone?
who doesn't now?

41. Are you too forgiving?
I don't think so.

42. Do you use chap stick?
sometimes.

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Going to North Carolina

44. Can you use chop sticks?
Nope.

45. Ever have cream puffs?
Nope.

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yeah. I liked it.

47. What was the last question you asked?
What did you say?

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Fly Or Die (Again) & Neptunes Presents...Clones. I lost the other one. it was 4.99 @ FYE

49. Boys or girls?
Boys.

50. What is your bus number for school?
749. That was from highschool I think..why do I remember that.

51. Is your hair curly?
Nope.

52. Last time you cried?
Wow..don't remember.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
...yes.

54. Do looks matter?
to some degree...ok yes.

55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
Yep.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yep.

57. Favorite time of the year?
Summer.

58. Favorite color?
Don't have one.

59. Are you sarcastic?
Extremely.

60. Do you have any tattoos?
One.

61. The last person you held hands with?
.....I'm trying to find a way to say your name with out saying it....

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
my room

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I think so.

65. Do you like your life right now?
I guess..

66. How often do you talk on the phone?
depends. Twice a day at the most. I'm a texter.

67. What is your favorite animal?
dogs.

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
food.

69. Do you have good vision?
Not at all.

70. Can you hula hoop?
I havent done it it years..so for like a couple seconds.

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I think I have unfortunately.

72. Do you have a job?
Yep.

73. Can you handle the truth?
Yep.

74. What are you wearing?
dont feel like explaining.

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes.

Feel free to ask for further information.

NBA 2K9

2008-10-10T22:54:00.002-04:00

So, I used to play video games on the regular. I was addicted. I also used to play the wrestling and basketball games with my brother. Wrestling is of no importance to me and I've seriously slacked on the basketball games. I used to be able to beat my brother. That's not happening anymore. The last one I remember playing had basketballs that lit on fire when you dunked. Yeah.

So anyway, I was watching him and Alex play NBA 2K9 today. I want it. I want to play again. AND they have a much better soundtrack. N.E.R.D. & Janelle Monae? Good enough for me. Anybody wanna buy it for me? I have a PS3..thanks.

Oh and just so you know..I'll crush you in Grand Turismo 5 and any Need For Speed game. I told yall I loved cars a while ago didn't I?

Soooo....on another note....

I'M GOING TO SEE LUPE TOMORROW at Loyola!! Yay me! lol.

I'm going to add 200 more pictures of Lupe to the ones I already have on my camera...some of which never made it to the internet. Oh well.

Either I Am Extremely Immature...

2008-10-03T16:19:00.002-04:00

...or this is slightly funny.

You decide.

Lost.

2008-10-02T12:52:00.005-04:00

No, not the show. The Coldpay song. I love this song.

I originally saw this on DJ Hyphens blog The Audacity Of Dope. Yes, I check it regularly. The Wack Lyric Of The Day is always classic, lol. So here's the promo.

I agree with what he said about somebody rapping on this. Wale maybe? lol..I mean he might as well the drums on this one already remind me of Go Go.

Don't Vote.

2008-10-02T12:50:00.001-04:00

I like this. A whole lot.

"I Asked You First Though"

2008-09-28T19:59:00.002-04:00

Since when has it been acceptable to answer a question with a question?

Who taught you that? If somebody says, "Hi, how are you?" you can't reply with "How are you?"

You're supposed to answer first.

Next..to clear up the censorship post...

The "stuff" I was talking about involves people who read the blog. It's not that I'm scared of what they may say...it's more of me not wanting them to know that "stuff".

At least not right now

I Forgot To Mention...

2008-09-27T14:13:00.000-04:00

I'm going to be in Norfolk, VA for the majority of the weekend. I'll be in other parts too but mostly here. Already I've seen a bald lady with fingerwaves. Shits hilarious, lol.

Anyway...IHOP sucks. Denny's is better. For future reference..where is the closest Denny's to Military Circle?

Oh. One last thing...Andre, don't let me catch you on the street.

Virginia asshole. Lol.

Censorship Sucks!

2008-09-27T04:50:00.001-04:00

In television, radio, music,.....blogs...

Lol.

I'm sitting here thinking about....stuff.

I tend to think about "stuff" a whole lot lately and I kinda hate it. I also hate that I can't go into anymore detail than that.

I'm censoring myself. I kinda don't like it too much. I kinda don't have a choice. Damnit.

Just a PSA.

2008-09-20T13:39:00.002-04:00

Green = Go
YELLOW = SLOW
Red = Stop

Get that? Yellow DOES NOT mean slam open your fucking brakes. Especially not at a light with no camera and no cars coming. (Yes, I'm talking to you, 08 Camry that I almost hit.)

Thank You.

(Is it just me or do people from VA drive like 10 miles slower than everybody else?)

Sooner Than Later.

2008-09-18T01:52:00.001-04:00

Okay so...

Few people know about my plans to move to Philly.

Let me give you the background real quick...

My mother has been dealing with a whole lot lately. My house has been broken into while I was the only one here and again when my sister was home alone and a bunch of other shit. The majority of this 'shit' either had something to do with my bad ass brother.

Anyway, my mom is from Philly and originally thats was where she wqs moving back to. Actually, it was right outside of Philly but blah blah the neighborhood is changing and more blah blah.

So she decided that she wanted to move to Perryville which I think is 20 minutes from Delaware or something.

In other words thats a long enough way from here. And since I'm not tryna move to no damn Perryville and I have a lot of family and a few (very few) friends in Philly that'd be better for me.

I've lived in the same house all my life so I'm ready for something different just not Perryville different.

So, this post pretty much came about because she just told me a little while ago that she's trying to have the house on the market by October 1st.

That's sooner than I thought and I'm not exactly ready for everything now but I probably would have 'bullshitted my life away' if she never gave me a date.

I'm only going to miss a few people and I might actually end up in Perryville for a little while but change is always good. Right?

Anybody wanna go shopping for apartment stuff with me tomorrow?

So, Were You Always This Annoying?

2008-09-17T21:58:00.001-04:00

Most people that know me learn quickly that I am very easily annoyed.

Some people that thought I was nice at first later told me that I was mean. There are Do's and Don'ts that come along with me.

Here are the DONTS.

DONT say 'Da bomb.com' around me. Ever.

DONT ever say Oh Em Gee or TTYL unless you are texting and/or a 12-15 year old girl.

DONT say to me or around me 'you only turn __ once' No shit. You only turn every age once. Find a better excuse.

DONT want what you can't have. I know that isn't something you can control necessarily. But at the same time, if you decide to just be friends with somebody because you want things 2 ways you can't get mad when that 'friend' shows even a little interest in somebody else. If we are friends you're not even on the same list.

DONT drunk dial me. Actually there are only 2 people that don't annoy me when they do. One of them is like one of my best friends and the other one is a new friend.

DONT keep trying to tell me a story I clearly have no interest in. Walking around me and dancing or saying 'I'm so happy' and then nothing else will not make me want to know the rest of the story if I never gave a fuck about anything else you ever said. Saying random things to me doesn't make me curious it only annoys me more.

I'm done for now because I don't feel like typing this anymore but this is only part one.

Just wait until I go back to work Friday...

Guess Where I'm Going...

2008-09-16T08:32:00.001-04:00

I'm going to the Lupe Fiasco show...and I'm gonna have an amazing night. LOL. Sorry I had to do it.

I made my sister get up yesterday morning to get the tickets for me because I had to work.

So that means October 2nd is N.E.R.D. and Common and then the weekend after that is Lupe.

October is looking like it won't suck this year. LOL.

Okay, I know It's Free & All...

2008-09-14T14:19:00.001-04:00

And I like chicken tenders, don't get me wrong, but four days in a row?

Seriously. This is getting ridiculous.