You Know What Sucks?

The fact that I'm just now realizing that I have this weird attraction to people I can't have.

It's like I'm playing a game with myself. Let's see if I can get him. Then when I do it turns into, lets see how far this will go/how long this will last.

That and I'm always attracted to people way too far from me..

What's that all about?

You can be my cutty cutty buddy, fa sho...

So, I have a question. I was listening to my Zune and this song by Trillville & T-Pain [what song doesnt have T-Pain in it] came on called Cutty Buddy and I got to thinkin'... How do you guys feel about cutty buddies, friends with benefits, fuck friends, etc.

I know how I feel about the whole thing because...lets just say the conversation has come up more than once with me but anyway LET ME KNOW! The responses will determine whether or not I go into detail on my situation which is always more than it seems.

I'm not scared of people not agreeing with me & my situations I just want to know if its worth the effort of typing it out.

Just to get you started and so that you have an idea. ..the following songs evoke memories for me occasionally. Hopefully they do the same for you


N.E.R.D. x Brain
Trillville x Cutty Buddy f. T-Pain
Kanye West x Addiction
Wale x Freaks
Ginuwine x So Anxious
The Dream x Falsetto
504 Boyz x I Can Tell
Native Tongue x Buddy
Lady Saw x If Ya Cant Grind Good
Eazy E x I'd Rather Fuck You


Damn, I should make a mixtape of this for myself, lol.
I realize that some of these make me look more promiscuous than what I actually am. At the moment I dont give a fuck cuz I'm me. Thanks.

Guess what...

I'm actually happy. Been that way for a while lately. Actually for about 2-3 weeks. That's a long time for me.

All that other time...bullshit!

LOL.

Anyways.....

Wale is still the shit.




That girl from the new Lupe video looks awfully familiar.


I'm about to sound real groupie like and say Lu looks good as hell in this video. How good can hell look though? But yeah..wouldn't you love to open you're door and see that on the other side...smile and all..

Okay that's the end of my groupie moment..moving on.

I'll be making changes again. Look for em.

Oh and I still didn't forget about my letter to Lupe. I might be sicing it but I do shit like that.

I'm sick

No really...send medicine.

Okay so...

I have a run in stockings I just bought two days ago. My toes are numb from wearing 4 1/2 inch heels for 11 hours. I have a donut on my car that will have to stay for another day possibly more because I work for the next 3-4. An ex of mine and I recently got back in contact and that actually seems to be going good for now. BUT somebody I was talking to for a while who I feel is/was trying to play me and thinks I dont know called me today after about two weeks to say he missed me. It took 2weeks and the realization that I wasnt calling you for you to call me. You couldnt have missed me that much. He may just be getting written off as a mistake Ive made in my life. I keep missing Lupe stuff. Did I mention my feet are killing me? Thats pretty much all I feel like filling in on.

Trust me, theres more.