Have You Ever...?

Have you ever fucked up really bad and didn't realize it until it was way too late.

So late that you're not even sure if you want to bring it up to apologize for it because you're hoping the person forgot or doesn't care anymore?

It's been so long that I keep thinking about it when they've probably moved on from it.

You ever been in that sitation?

Yeah, wack isn't it?

M.I.A.

I'm not sure exactly why I haven't been posting here in the last 5 years.

Lord knows there have been days when I've needed to.

I may even be updating now only because I have nothing else to do but at least it's getting done. Right?

This may be one of those short post that are kind of cryptic and random. Yeah, that'll work for now.

Mmkay, so I think I have the best friends I could ever ask for. The only problem with that is they're never around. Not by their own choice but by mine. Kinda sorta. The ones I tell the most too are either hours or miles away.

When I see them, sometimes it's hard to explain (if I even bother trying) that I don't really care if I do much of anything with them. I'm fine with just being around or with them & have them being themselves. Make sense?

I've noticed that bores them but I'm completely content. I guess that's a little selfish but.. -shrug- What can you do?

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So my sister and I were talking the other day. She knows me a little better than I thought she did. I said one thing that was as vague as anything could be and she knew exactly what I was talking about, who I was talking about and the feelings that went through me when I said it. Great for her. Sucked for me.

Now that I'm thinking about it..all I really did was tell her one story. A couple minutes passed and then I did this whole heavy sighing thing and she makes the comment that nailed everything.

She's wack for that.

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I think somebody gave me "the eye" the other day and I was too lost in my own thoughts to realize it. They so could have ...gotten it back.

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I'm pretty sure I can be sent to hell for some of the thoughts I had while sitting in church the other day.

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I am not a She-devil.

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That probably isn't too believable after that whole church thing, huh?

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I have dreams bigger than my pockets.

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I miss Keef again. This time more than last time..weird.


I think that's enough for now...