15 November 2009
It's like I'm playing a game with myself. Let's see if I can get him. Then when I do it turns into, lets see how far this will go/how long this will last.
That and I'm always attracted to people way too far from me..
What's that all about?
02 September 2009
I have a lot of flaws. A lot. I'm working on them. Kind of. I'm being really contradictory but whatever... I need to ramble right now. I love music. Period. Nearly everything. I can sit around for hours and o nothing but listen to music.
I've fucked up a couple relationships and just like everybody else I've blamed a couple of the other people instead of looking at myself. Shit happens.
I should apologize to Moonlight [who probably doesn't even remember that nick name] now. I mean, I should but I won't right now. There's so much I wanna say. I don't even have a plan for this post actually. I'm just typing. Whatever comes to me is what you see. Fuck it. I was looking at some old stuff a while back and putting the times together. I used to kind of put all of the communication things on Moonlight. Looking back, it was me. The timeline doesn't look good on my part at all. I'm sorry.
Probably doesn't even matter anymore but it helps me. I think.
Mkay. I'll probably be blogging more now. I have a lot to say that I've been keeping inside for whatever reason.
Random. Andre is my favorite blogger. Mmkay, I'm done.
28 August 2009
I was gonna wait until Saturday to share this seeing as how that's his birthday but this is beautiful. I recommend actually watching it on YouTube though because it's partially cut off here. Kinda like watching a movie in full screen instead of wide. You don't get the whole thing.
[I didn't even really like this song before]
Best. Tribute. Ever.
03 August 2009
BTW: There are 50 songs on it. Yes. 50. She did that because he died at 50. 46 main tracks and 4 bonus tracks. Also, the songs do not download in order so it's more of a way for you to catch up on some of what you may have missed.
1. Don't Know Why I Love You
2. Who's Loving You
3. I Can't Quit Your Love
4. Push Me Away
5. (You Were Made) Especially For Me^
6. The Lady In My Life
7. For All Time (Unreleased Demo)
8. Can You Feel It
9. Never Can Say Goodbye
10. This Place Hotel
11. Show You The Way To Go^
12. I Want To Be Where You Are
13. One More Chance
14. Hum Along and Dance
15. Dancing Machine
16. Music and Me^
17. Enjoy Yourself
18. We Are To Change The World ( From Disney's "Captain EO)
19. Human Nature
20. Monkey Business (Unreleased Track)
21.Someone Put Your Hand Out (Unreleased Track)
23. In The Back (Unreleased Track)
24. Rock With You (Single Version)^
25. Trouble (Unreleased Demo)
26. Off The Wall (Single Version)^
28. For All Time (Unreleased Track)^
29. Get On The Floor
30. Childhood (Theme From "Free Willy 2")*
31. Heaven Can Wait
32. Ghosts (Extended Version)
33. Tabloid Junkie
34. HIStory (Tony Moran's History Lesson)
36. You Rock My World
37. Love Never Felt So Good (Unreleased Demo)^
39. Blood On the Dance Floor
40. What You Don't Know
41. Burn This Disco Out
42. Hot Street (Unreleased Demo)
43. Is It Scary
44. If You Don't Love Me (Unreleased Demo)
45. Nite Line (Unreleased Track)^
1. We Are The World (Demo Version)
2. State of Shock (Demo w/ Freddie Mercury)
3. Jackson 5 Medley (LIVE from the Bad Tour 88')
4. Off The Wall Medley (LIVE from the HIStory Tour 97')
* MJ's personal favorites
^ She's Not Famous Recommended
07 June 2009
02 June 2009
Seven Whole Days - Toni Braxton
I post everything for a reason. I just don't make the reasons clear at first. I would explain but I don't feel like it right now. *shrugs* Oh well.
24 May 2009
x Cleopatra's Needle [obelisk in New York]
There are three Cleopatra's Needles: in London, Paris and New York City. Each obelisk is made of red granite, stands about 68 feet high, weighs about 180 tons and is inscribed with hieroglyphs. Although the needles are genuine Ancient Egyptian obelisks, they are somewhat misnamed as they have no inscriptions associated with queen Cleopatra VII of Egypt. They were originally erected in the Egyptian city of Heliopolis on the orders of Thutmose III, around 1450 B.C.E. The quarry from which the red granite was obtained was near Aswan. The inscriptions were added about 200 years later by Ramses II to commemorate his military victories. The obelisks were later moved to Alexandria and set up in the Caesarium — a temple built by Cleopatra (hence the name Cleopatra's Needle) in honor of Mark Antony — by the Romans, during the reign of Augustus Caesar, but were later toppled. The knocking down of the obelisks allowed them to be buried in sand, which helped preserve them from local weathering.
It's there..wasting away. If you want to..you can click that link above the picture.
22 May 2009
But anyway, I say all that to say this. Right now I'm feeling like I should be on some Trey Songz last time shit. Okay, maybe that's the wrong example but I feel like I wanna revert a little. It's kinda hard to fight this when it comes up.
Actually, it's really hard. Well..with that being said I just decided I'm gonna write my next part of Paraniod. Maybe next two parts. I'm in that kind of mood now. Yes at 3:52 in the morning.
Note: Never take a nap at 8PM.
**Not to replace Bestest.
19 May 2009
It's still not on sale yet. I'm not even sure if it will be. I did my part by telling you though lol.You can check up on it here.
via Coolest Gadgets
What I do is make a list of everything I want ahead of time and have people "randomly" buy them for me. See, I figure that way when I actually move into a place and have a part nobody will have to buy anything and you can party in a fully furnished place. Great idea right? I know. With that being said...here are 2 things I want for my kitchen. Two of many.
The Ex Knife Holder
69.99 @ ThinkGeek.com
Ice Invaders Ice Cube Tray
7.49 @ ThinkGeek.com
05 May 2009
Wearing jeans and dirty sneakers exclusively. Not wanting to get my hair done. Riding bikes through the woods. Go-karts. Racing. Listening in on the male conversations. Playing my brother in video games AND beating him. I miss that stuff sometimes. That was me though pretty much all through elementary school to maybe part of middle school. In some weird, backwards way that was me trying to avoid extra attention from males because naturally I didn’t trust them. This is how I ended up more comfortable with having males for friends. Makes no sense but at the same time makes complete sense.
I kind of still don’t actually fully trust most of the females I know. That's mostly because I know most of them will tell you one thing knowing the whole time they're planning on doing something else. I don’t trust any of them to really keep anything to themselves. Yeah, sometimes I may not be able to find out they told something but I’m almost positive they told at least one person. Even in elementary school I think I had one female best friend sometime between kindergarten and 3rd grade. LOL. I honestly don’t even remember. All I remember is her name was Ashley. She found me on facebook a while back...but I digress. Back in elementary school I never really wanted to be friends with the girls. I mean they were cool but I wasn’t as self conscious around males as I was around females. People don’t believe me when I say that but it’s true. Being friends with the prissy girls only meant trying to be cute, being way too extra and begging for attention and trying to impress the dudes that I didn’t want looking at me that way. I mean yeah I started to like a couple of them but I never actually wanted any of them. Not until middle school at least.
Middle school some new people were in the neighborhood and I’ve never admitted it but yeah I kind of had a crush on one of them. I’m not even sure why anymore because he wasn’t really attractive. I mean he was cool. He was funny. He was around. That’s about it. Now that I’m thinking about it though he wanted to be my first. I can’t help but laugh at that now. I actually considered it once and for all the wrong reasons. I’m glad I make good decisions for the most part lol. Anyway, people thought I was jealous when he kind of chilled on me and started talking to a much less attractive girl that had also moved into the neighborhood. I wasn’t jealous in the least. That bitch was ugly and still is. He also showed interest in one of my friends back then. I was a girl. I wasn’t stupid. I seriously think that he started liking them once he found out how much of a tomboy I actually was. He showed interest when I was being a little girly and once he found out that wasn’t me he went for the prissy ones who couldn’t do shit. I was cool with that. I’m not going to change how I am to conform for anybody else’s satisfaction. No sir. I think that’s kind of why my relationships (if that’s what you want to call them) go the way they do.
Coming Tomorrow… Part 3 | The "Relationships"
04 May 2009
My movitation for this? Honestly, watching Brave New Voices. I've always loved spoken word. Always. I just suck at writing in iambic pentameter and all that. I'm much better at holding everything in for years and then one day going "Fuck it and fuck you. This is how I feel" No seriously, I'm doing this mostly because I've noticed I'm falling back into my stressed out, pissed all the time, highly irratble self. That shit is not cool. I'm not really happy. I mean I'm cool but having every little thing piss you off? Not cool.
See there's a whole lot of stuff I keep in and I know that's not healthy it's just easy. The way I see it..if I can get this stuff out then maybe it'll help. Maybe. I’m not absolutely positive it will work but as cliché as this is going to sound life really is short and it’s not really worth it if there are no risks involved.
With that being said, I must warn a few of you that may be reading this: there will be sections dedicated to a couple people I’m currently involved with or have been involved with in the past that will be of no interest to you. Names will be mentioned (all except one). Nobody knows who you people are so don't trip. I’ll warn you about that ahead of time as well.
There are 3 sections and the last part has about 6 sub-sections (don't get scared away now). They come one at a time and each one is just like a little history with a specific person and then the letter directly to that person.
My best friend say I’m bottled up, I need a fucking therapist But I can’t think of nobody I’d wanna to share this with. Why should I open up on somebody else’s carelessness? There goes the top niggas so here it is…
I was a reserved kid when I was younger. Very reserved. I’m not sure what caused it originally but I know it lasted way longer than it should have. I mean I had friends and all that nonsense but I wasn’t as voicstrous as I am now about my opinions on things. I think I remember trying to break out of it at one point and then the incident happened.
I can’t even really call it an incident because incidents (let me say that one more time. Incident. Okay) only happen once. This went on over a period of time. Now, before I say this let me say that it’ll be a big step for me because only 3 people know about this. Two of them were involved. One of them was me. Okay. A long time ago my mom used to send my sister and me next door so that her friend’s mother could watch us. Now this lady never really watched us. I remember the characters of As The World Turns and Oprah watching us more than she actually did. I actually remember her sleeping a lot too.
Word of advice. Never let anybody else’s old ass mom watch your kids. They never
really care as much as somebody that has an actual connection to you. No matter how nice they seem. So anyway two teenagers also lived in the house. The daughter of my mom’s friend (one who eventually ended up watching us later) and her brother. While the old lady was “watching” me I would sometimes get passed off or left with the brother. This is where the incident comes in. I’m not going to get into too many details but I will say that there was …how do I want to say this… basically he molested me and at the time I didn’t really know better. I didn’t know what was wrong or right about the situation really and I didn’t find out until much later. This made me hate him. I still hate him to this day. I never forgot. I don’t think I ever will. I actually cared about his sister. I can now say that I think I may have loved his sister for all she did for me. I looked up to her. I think I wanted to be like her for a little while. She actually caught her brother in the act once and from what remember she ousted him in front of his mother and my mother and they brushed it off. I think they actually didn’t believe her or something like that. Maybe she didn’t see what she think she saw. Maybe she was just angry at him. I mean I never said anything so it didn’t happen right? That’s bullshit. I’m actually getting angrier the more I think about it. I’m getting off track…
Anyway, she died in a car accident a while back. Years later I found out that he was in a really bad car accident and could have died. I remember immediately thinking, “That’s what he gets. …Fuck. He didn’t die?” I thought that because it meant the possibility of running into him was still there and I honestly don’t know how I’d react if I ever saw him again. I wouldn’t be able to be held accountable for my actions. I never understood how people who had traumatic things happen to them could be like, “Oh. I forgive him because he knew not what he did” or “I can’t blame him. I forgive him.” I say FUCK that forgiveness shit. I’m fucked up for possibly the rest of my life and you get to be at peace for yours because I forgave you? FUCK that shit. FUCK your life.
This wasn’t the only thing that I’ve held in forever that I think has slowly fucked up my way of thinking but I think maybe it had a hell of a lot to do with it. Maybe that’s why I get so angry so quickly. Maybe that’s why my sexuality is the way it is. I don’t know. I’m not sure. I can’t say.
You know why I think I don’t tell anybody I get close to this? I don’t want to scare dudes away with this information because a lot of the time girls who’ve had stuff like this happen to them are always crazy...or potentially crazy. I don’t want people sympathizing with me or feeling like they have to talk different around me or treat me any differently. My problems didn’t come out as crazy. Mine came out as anger. Pent up anger. Maybe that’s why I snap so quickly. Maybe that’s why I curse so much. Maybe. Maybe in some backwards way that made me want to be a boy, or at least act like one, for a good part of my childhood.
Coming Tomorrow… Part 2 | The Tomboy Phase
25 March 2009
Transformers 2 : Revenge Of The Fallen
*There's extra time on this one but it looks the best out of the other videos.
Side Bar: I think I saw one of the ones from Beast Wars...and the insects..and technically Bumblebee should be the Volt but I'm not complaining lol.
These movies are thee definition of nostalgia. I feel like a kid again. I'm that excited for both of them.
For The Record: I don't think choosing between Kanye & Ne-Yo is a hard decision at all. At all.
They're having a sale on their Kazbah items (up to 40% off). There's some pretty good stuff there. Shop now.
They're also offering free shipping on all they're new items in for spring. Use the code: GOGREEN.
Extra | You can get $20 off a $75 purchase with the code LKR5EQ or 20% off with the Rep code so12621.
They're having a somewhat secret sale. 30% off select items. It's not promoted on the site you can only get there from this link. If there's a store close to you just go in and mention the word spring to a staff member. Sale ends this Friday, March 27th though. So be quick about it.
Apparently, the Vans.com website went down recently and to make up for it they're offering 20% off of EVERYTHING with the coupon code: SORRY09. That promotion starts tomorrow (26th and ends the 29th.
*via Simply Sneakers. Follow them on Twitter.
24 March 2009
With that being said here are the tour dates as posted on his myspace.
Mar 25 2009 4:00P
Wale @ WMC Miami, Florida
Mar 26 2009 8:00P
Wale @ WMC Miami, Florida
Mar 27 2009 8:00P
The Loft with Wale x UCB with special guest B.O.B. Atlanta, GA
Apr 1 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Syracuse University Syracuse, New York
Apr 2 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ University of Vermont Burlington, Vermont
Apr 3 2009 4:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Bowdoin College Brunswick, Maine
Apr 4 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Portland, Maine
Apr 8 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Winchester, Virginia
Apr 9 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Richmond, Virginia
Apr 10 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB College, Pennsylvania
Apr 20 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Jakes (University of Indiana) Bloomington, Indiana
Apr 21 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Peoria, Illinois
Apr 22 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Urbana, Illinois
Apr 24 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Cleveland, Ohio
Apr 25 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Canton, New York
Apr 26 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Toronto, Ontario
Apr 28 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB New Haven, Connecticut
May 1 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Sacramento, California
May 2 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Riverside, California
May 3 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB San Francisco, California
May 4 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB San Diego, California
May 5 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Scottsdale, Arizona
May 8 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Milton, Massachusetts
May 8 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Boston, Massachusetts
May 12 2009 8:00P
Attention Deficit Tour: Wale w/ UCB Norfolk, Virginia
May 16 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Carlton College Northfield, Minnesota
Aug 13 2009 8:00P
Wale w/ UCB @ Oya Festival Middelalderparken, Oslo
Try to make at least one of em. I'm gonna try..extra hard this time. No show in DC though?
URB Magazine has a couple pictures up on their site of the video for Tabi's Jetsetter video he recently filmed in DC. You can see the rest here and a quick behind the scenes video below.
Follow @tabibonney & @URBMAG on Twitter.
04 March 2009
.DMV ARTIST. If you want to submit anything to the show you still can. There's a $20 entrance fee and the deadline is May 1st. There's no size requirement and the maximum amount of entries is 4. The artist that are featured in the show will also be featured in a book to accompany it. Do it! lol.
The show will open July 11th and run until August 11th
You can get all the details here.
Be sure to visit Mortal Plush & Art Whino at their blogs.
18 February 2009
Anywho, I was just going through the stuff on my ancient photobucket account and decided to share. No laughing. I did pretty good considering I taught myself back then.
Wow, I had to be like 15 or something when I did some of these. SMH.
05 February 2009
1. I've lived in the same house, in the same room, my whole life. Now do you see why I want to move so bad? I actually still have a scarf I've had since I was like 4.
2. Most of the time, I don't think anything is done right unless I do it.
3. I have this problem where I'm hardly ever attracted to someone from the same place as me. If two people are exactly the same & one is from PG County and one is from Cali...I'm going for the Cali dude.
4. I have an addiction. One that is sexual in nature. My mindset as far as that goes is almost all male. Seriously, I think about it way more than dudes do. If I don't mention it that much it's probably because I don't want it to seem like that's all I think about. Even though it is.
5. I have issues telling people I love them. My sister just realized today I've never said that to her. I actually got nausea & dizzy when I had to say it to my grandmother once. Somebody can say it and all I'll say is "No you don't" Either that or that Heartbreak Kid scene where he just goes "Love, Love, Love"
6. I used to say I'd never get married. Now I say maybe. Even though I don't want to get married I say maybe because I have a fear of being old and alone.
7. People tell me I'm pretty/beautiful ALL THE TIME. Sometimes I see it sometimes I don't. Actually, that was a while ago. I always see it now. Every damn day lol.
8. I was a tomboy through most of my childhood. I think up until part of middle school. That's probably why I much rather prefer the company of males to females.
9. I lied to the people I've been with about how good they were in bed. Except one person. He's the only one who's actually good. I wait for it. I'd rather have good sex months between than to have bad sex on the regular. The only reason I probably kept going back is because of that addiction thing I mentioned earlier.
10. I have periods where I curse like a sailor. Maybe worse. Fuck it. I don't care. If you don't like it that's a personal problem.
11. I have a thing for tall dudes with glasses. e.g. Lu, my ex, the dude I wanted from work, my situationship... I don't know what it is.
12. I believe all men should know about cars, football, music & shoes other than Jordans. Things I care about? Cars, basketball, music, art, sex, food & shoes. Not necessarily in that order. Music is before cars.
13. I rarely give a fuck. Take that how you want to.
14. I was in school for graphic design. I'm actually really artsy/artistic. Just not on command.
15. I love sneakers. I just love heels more. I feel better in them. It's just sometimes hard to choose. That and most of mine you can't wear in the winter.
16. I have thee biggest birth mark ever. It covers one of my legs almost completely causing my legs to be two different colors.
17. I didn't wear shorts, skirts, or dresses until high school because of that. You can't keep me out of them now.
18. I think South Park is funnier than Family Guy.
19. I want to live in L.A. but only for like 3 months.
20. I used to want to be a production engineer. Bad. I thought about being a DJ too.. I'm too reserved for that though.
21. You probably won't know when I'm mad at you or cut you off until you're sitting around and realize I haven't talked to you in a month. If it gets to that point I'm beyond explaining to you why it happened.
22. I have an older sibling I've never met. I have no interest in meeting her now either.
23. I love lingerie. If you saw me in it you would to.
24. Michael from Good Times is my cousin. No bullshit. On my dad's side.
25. I will probably give you more useless information about me very soon.
28 January 2009
We saw some really nice ones and some were crappy. Well, not really, I just didn't like how they were decorated. This one house though...it had the best game room ever because those were there. They were paintedon the wall and frames were put around them. There was more but those were my favorite.
12 January 2009
11 January 2009
I love Fiona Apple.
I love Amy Lee.
...and there was the thought process behind this sort of pointless post. Fuck that. It's for me so it isn't pointless..I guess, lol.
10 January 2009
I really would have rather stayed until Sunday but I couldn't get out of work. Bullshit. The reasons were bullshit and I don't feel like explaining.
Anyway, I had fun. I always do. All I do is eat, sleep and have...fun watching tv & movies all day. I don't get that very often here. It's great to sleep with no interruptions or somebody coming in to ask for or look for something.
So for some reason I'm more motivated than normal to get out of here. I think it's not so much where I'm going it's just the fact that I'm going.
There are perks to 'going' but still the perks aren't my main reasons.
With that being said...even with all my 'rest' I'm ridiculously tired so it's off to sleep early for me.