I think I'd like me.

Seriously. I was listening to Tegan and Sara's song You Wouldn't Like Me earlier..

-sings- I feeel liiike I wouldn't like me if I meeet meeeeeee

So anyway, I was thinking at first.. I probably wouldn't like me if I met myself. I'm kind of an asshole who always looks at the negative sides of things too and I question everything. Aaannnd if I really like somebody I say and do stupid shit that has me facepalming when I think back to it and realize what I've done.

But then.. then I went and read some of my old post on here. Like from around... two summers ago maybe. I'd like THAT person. She was cool.

I wonder what happened.



You ever wondered what it was about you that made people like you?

I realized people laugh at stuff I say a lot. Not like.. laughing at me but I either don't like something or I have some smart ass comment. I don't even mean to do that sometimes but I find people waiting to see what I have to say about something.

Am I really THAT girl now? I'm not sure if I should laugh at that.

Everybody Plays The Fool

Everybody has that one person who they'd do anything for.

Somebody that even if they say some fucked up shit to you you'd be like "he/she was just joking". Somebody that..even if both of you got with somebody else you'd be secretly waiting for them to break up with the other person. Somebody who's jokes always seem way funnier than everybody elses somehow. Somebody you'd give anything to.

Do anything for.

I have that. He doesn't have me though. Shame.

I don't even think he knows who he is anymore.



And when the music starts to play,
And your ability to reason is swept away,
Oh, heaven on earth is all you see;
You're out of touch with reality;

No Regrets?

I said I was going to go to sleep an hour ago but now I'm here writing this.

I was thinking about the whole no regrets thing.

I think I may have one...wait two. I have two regrets already.

This is going to sound weird but one of them I can still avoid if I stop being a bitch about it and the other is already out of my hands. Bitch in this case means punk, btw.

Both of them involve the same people.

I need to get it together.

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Oh, and I know you read this you dick. Stop randomly calling me asking what's going on and just ask me about the post nosy ass.

Road Trips.

I'm easily bored & restless.

I always want to get away somewhere. Anywhere sometimes.

The idea of going to the same three or four places people always go doesn't interest me. What are those places? Name three places off the top of your head you always hear about. Yes. Those three.

I want to go to Japan, London, France, China,... Singapore!...everywhere. At least one time in my life.

Those are the big trips though. Sometimes I up and decide that if I have the money either next week or the week after I might want to go to New York or Chicago or something....back to Los Angeles. Hell any part of California is fine with me. It's completely different than everything I'm used to here and that's why I like it so much.

The point of all this is why does everybody act like they're already old and locked down. Nobody is spontaneous anymore. I want to up and go out of town if I have a day off and wait until the last minute to come back. I don't mind being tired as hell at work because that doesn't last all day and the memories of what happened the night before is all I'll be thinking about. Somebody I know told me that they needed six months sometimes for trips. SIX MONTHS! Maybe I do dream to much and maybe I am crazy..but I told her that was like having a life plan to take a trip. I'm not planning on freaking moving somewhere for 2 months. Geez, lol.

I don't want the majority of my experiences to be shit that happened at work. I don't want to miss out on experiences all together because I was at work.

Jobs/careers are supposed to enhance my life not be my life.

I'm out of going to the same 3 clubs that play the same seven songs. I'd rather go to a live show with actual instruments and talented people. You know.. where they play music I know I like.

Or..OR! Or I could go to one where I won't have to see bitches all dressed in variations of the same outfit. Everybody thinks they're so unique these days. -rolls eyes-

Anyway.. NO REGRETS!

5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 ..11, 12, 13

So everybody keeps talking about how at 5:06 and 7 seconds it'll be 5:06 and 7 seconds it'll be 05:06:07 08/09/10 and how it won't happen again for a while.

Why does this matter though? Am I missing something?

I mean.. this happens all the time just with different number. It's inevitable. They're numbers.

I remember the big deal people made about 01/01/01 ..and 03/04/05 ...

You get the point.

I guess its cool for those first 3 seconds when you realize it. I guess I just don't need 50 people to tell me about it like something spectacular was going to happen.

Wouldn't it be some bullshit if it did though?

...

I love how music can relate to anybody and everybody's situation. No matter what it is.

No matter what you have gone through or are going through at the moment..somebody wrote a song about it.

I don't know what I'd do with myself without it.

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On another note... The speakers on my new computer suck ass. I hear that little vibrating thing in the background and everything. Shit is wack.

I'm Not Unfaithful But...

Build a wall of books
Between us in our bed
Repeat repeat the words
That i know we both have said

Relax into the need
We get so comfortable
Remember when i was
So strange and likable

I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray

When i get a little scared
When i get a little scared
When i get a little

When i jerk away
From holding hands with you
I know these habits hurt
Important parts of you

Remember when i was
Sweet and unexplainable
Nothing like this person
Unlovable

I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray

When i get a little scared
When i get a little scared
When i get a little scared
When i get a little

Run run run run
Run run run run

I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray

I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray
I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray




I love them.