My Favorite Song...

...From a Disney movie, lol.

I love Fiona Apple.


I love Amy Lee.


...and there was the thought process behind this sort of pointless post. Fuck that. It's for me so it isn't pointless..I guess, lol.

I'd So Wear This If I Was A Guy.

"Target" T-shirt by Upper Playground. $25.


"Big Time Small Time" Shirt by 10Deep. $88.


"Man/Machine" Sweater by Mishka. $176.

Part 1.
_{All available on Digital Gravel.}

"He Sounds So Wack!"

Really?

You're right. And that dude you just met named Lucky sounds sooo much better.

Sidenote: His nickname is Lucky apparently because his mother had her tubes tied and still got pregnant. In my opinion, her nickname should have been changed to 'Blown'. Anyway...

I guess I understand where you're coming from. You're used to a certain type of dude and no matter how much you deny it your decisions on companions are somewhat based on what you're friends would think. I know what I like...sort of.

I'm 0-3 with those other dudes. Clearly, even with everything we did have in common things weren't right. At this point I have nothing to lose. Besides, you only live once and I'm not trying to be thinking, "What if" and "I wonder what that would have been like" the rest of my life.

Even if everything goes terribly wrong, even within the next 20 minutes, it'll make for a good story at the least.

I say all of that to say this:

I don't care how wack he sounds to you. He's kinda dope to me, lol.

As wack as that sounded....

You Know What..

I hate it when I make promises I really don't want to keep, lol.

I'll try though since I did promise...kind of.

Well I will say that the last four days were better than normal for me. Best couple days of doing nothing I've had in a while.

I was actually relaxed, I found out some things about myself, and now I don't want to go back to work. I guess that happens when you get 4 days off from work..kind of.

I need my own store ASAP.

Oh. My. God.

Excuse the blasphemy.

Okay, so I just got asked if our store sold pajamas again. Be proud of me. I didnt kick them.

I did literally have to bite my tongue though.

I did realize that every time somebody ask me that dumb ass question its a male and it's one that was trying to randomly strike up a conversation with me.

For the record. If I sit by myself in a big ass cafeteria that means you should leave me the fuck alone and that I do not need company. It means I wanted to sit alone.

Oh, I like the crush again. He's cute again (see how quick that was?) BUT [because there is always a but] I can tell he's a flirt & that's not gonna work. Only because I think he flirts with this funny looking girl I work with that I think is allergic to everything and has heart problems and is lazy.

A bunch of dudes try to talk to her and I just don't see why. I've tried but not a damn thing about that girl is cute to me. She even smiles way too hard. It has to be because she's umm what do you wanna call it? Fair skinned? Okay.

I just don't like her too much because she lives up to the petite girl being fragile and needing somebody to help her with everything. I hate that shit. I work so hard to fight that stereotype and here SHE comes, lol.

I just had a Dru Hill moment. You know the part in 'I Should Be' where they go 'It might seem like I'm hating..yeah that part just played in my head.

I am in no way hating though because that would imply that I'm jealous of something and trust and believe there is no reason to be jealous on my part.

Anyway, he's a flirt..but he's a cute flirt so I guess if I wanted him too he could be my August fling. Maybe.

Maybe not.






_{X is outta there, though.}

Do me a huge favor.

Remind me never to do that again. I am not Vivica. He is not Jamie. & Tommy Davidson is not a neighbor of mine. Or his for that matter. [Thank God].

Damnit. I have to be to work in a couple hours...

Just for the record...

I think anybody that took an umbrella to the Glow In The Dark Tour for the sole purpose of waving it in the air when Rihanna sings 'Umbrella' and obstructing the view of fellow concert-goers is a fucking loser.


That is all.