I Was Out Of Your League.

I have a couple new favorite songs. Thanks to Pandora.

This is one of them. My new theme song.

True Affection - The Blow

I was kidding about the theme song thing. lol.

Sooo

I have a problem

I'm supposed to be looking for a car and guess what I'm doing. Shopping.

Karmaloop is having a sale. 60% off entire order. ...for the next 20 something hours. Good shit. Move quick.

Help me work through my problem by getting this stuff for me.

Supra Golden State Ltd. Ed. Muska Skytop


$115

Adidas Attitude Hi in White & Copper


$66

Hellz Bellz Riding High T-Shirt

$38

e.5.charlie Smoking Gun T-Shirt

$32

Obey Chuck D T-Shirt

$26

Ignorant Shit.

First Family Bottled Water. $2.50

This is ridiculous.

Back To Basics.

Normally that would be a good thing. Right?

Bestest. We need to talk. Thanks.

Talking Wreckless.

My mother used to tell me I spoke without thinking about what other people would think. I didn't think about consequences or feelings.

I've been doing a whole lot of that lately. The bad part is I don't realize I'm doing it until it's too late.

That can't be good.

Consistency is Key.

Especially when picking a suitor.

Yes. I said suitor.

Take me for example. I consistently pick the wrong dudes to talk to. Everything looks great at first but eventually, every single time, things change and it's back to square one.

This is also why you should always have somebody on stand-by....or that weekend nigga. Sorry Andre. Lol.

BUT I'm consistent and that's all that matters.

Brain Is For Lovers.

...sure is. lls. Brain is my shit.....the song...

Thats on one of my shirts I bought at that N.E.R.D. concert I went to a while back too.

It is true though...slightly. Depends on what "lovers" means to you, lol.

"Do I really even love you? Or do I really love your brain" lol...my shit...

Anyway, I will probably sound extremely concieted, drawn, gassed or whatever you wanna call it when I say this but...

I'm too nice for as cute as I am.

No bullshit. That has to be it. I mean, as my friend would say, 'I ain't the best looking bitch in the world but what the fuck?' Seriously, niggas must be used to decent looking females being stuck up or something.

Why do I say this? Where is all this coming from?

Well, I've looked at my track record. Dudes seem to take my being 'cool as shit' for granted. I tend to lose interest in dudes extremely quick. If it seems like I've been talking to somebody for a while there's probably something making me want to stick around..at least for a couple more days or something.

But dudes take me being nice, or wanting to talk about absolutely nothing as me being clingy or something when that's so not the case.

Yes, I do tend to get slightly (okay extremely) goofy when it's somebody I do like and that can come off wrong. I understand that but what the hell man?! Lol.

I'm giving up soon.

So basically I just ranted and rambled because I was thinking about my current situation and how a dude I used to talk to took all the stuff I did for him for granted.

Now he's talking all this I want you back bullshit. No sir. Thanks but no thanks.

I Changed My Mind...

About what? About not wanting anything for Christmas but a laptop.

It's a little last minute I know but you still have time. I don't even need it by Christmas day.

I want this coat.

It's on Digital Gravel. It's $154. There's free shipping for orders over $100 so there you go. There's one XS left. Act fast.

Damn You Gmail!

I have TWO gmail accounts. I blog with one and get personal emails and solicitations on the other. Just because I sign in with one it doesn't mean I want to automatically sign out of the other one.

Moving on...


I just got a newsletter from NOOKA. I'm in love.

SIDE NOTE: It's not swagger jackin' in this situation. You put me on to it. That's all. LOL.

Anyway, they had a kind of teaser picture at the end that said Coming Soon...

I want one. Somehow.

There was more but I'll have to get back to that later.

Quick Question.

Have you ever wanted to tell somebody something but didn't because you didn't want to boost their ego any farther?

I'm battling with a situation like that now.

I wanna tell somebody something about what happens...I'm not gonna go into detail about it because I'd kind of be telling them but yeah. I'm not trying to sice him or anything but I think he'd want to know this. It's kind of important information. Oh well.


Anyway, I've been on my random blog search for the last 20 minutes. I've been going through the followers of The Lupe Fiasco Show. There's some pretty decent blogs following them. Cool people. It seems.

I think I might link the ones I like here. I'm still deciding on that too.

Coming Soon...

Video from the show...

How Professional.

I rented a car from Enterprise down the street from me to go to the Lupe show in College Park this Friday. It was a Dodge Caliber (which are really nice by the way)..

A guy named Patrick took the return for me after I had to wait a while but he makes small talk with me and ask me what it's like working at the resort. My first reaction was how the hell but then I remembered I had to give them a pay stub...

So, after I turn it in I get all the way home and then 20 minutes after I'm in the house I get a random text from a New York number that says "NICE BOOTS!"

I'm assuming it's somebody I met at the show or hotel or something so I go, "umm thanks..who is this?"

Guess who the fuck it was....

Yes. It was fucking Patrick from the Enterprise. He took my number off of my paperwork and texted me. Who the fuck does that?

Can't you get fired for that type of stuff? How professional is that?

That took heart though because I could have easily carried the shit out of him..I've been real hostile lately, I should have. LOL.

I just said, 'oh wow okay' and he ask me should he keep my number.

Seriously though?

If I didn't give you my number then I didn't want you to have it. You can't steal a girls number. That's cheating. Then you use a weak starter line like nice boots. Really?

Sorry sir, but you lose.



I would still recommend Enterprise to any and everybody. They're really nice up there. Sometimes too nice but whatever..

Another Eventful Lupe Show

So, if I was to describe my weekend so far in a nutshell it would go like this.

Went to College Park. Chilled in the hotel with everybody. Matty and Bam are hilarious. Got some Potbelly's with Mars, Keena, & Megan. Back to the hotel. Went to the Lupe show at UMD College Park. Got backstage at a sold out show. Backstage sucks though I would much rather have gotten a ticket and been in the front. Lu was great. I can go to a bunch of shows because something different always happens. An example would be Lu trying to take off his shirt and getting stuck in it. Another example would be tossing his shoes in the crowd. Chilled with 1/3 of Hey Champ. Met some groupies. I'm so not down with the whole looking like I'm with the groupies shit so I had to vacate.

Speaking of groupies.... I want to take this time out to acknowledge the group of girls and one guy that followed us back from the show with their headlights off like they were on some stakeout mission or private eye shit or something. THEN they were bold enough to come up in the hotel and be like, "So we wanna know where Lupe is" Really? Did you really think we were gonna be like, "Oh sure, he's right down the hall. His door should be open why don't you just walk on in?" That was some bold shit though.

After that...we went back and forth trying to figure out if we were going to stay in the hotel, go to IHOP or go to the bar. Everybody split up and all three were done. I haven't had much sleep so the rest is kind of a blur.

Lastly, Matty...I want my damn Hey Champ shirt..AND my Kenna cd, lol. Make that happen. Thanks.

You know what you should do though? Go here:

KayCee
Hey Champ
Bam
Bishop
Lupe Fiasco Show



Next Up: How NOT to get a girls number.

Can I Get Me Some Satisfaction?

Songs I Can't Stop Listening To...

List 1 of 3.

1. John Legend x Satisfaction
"You don't love me like you say you do. You don't want me the way that I want you"
"I wonder, wonder, wonder why your eyes they wander"

2. Kanye West x See You In My Nightmares
"Tell everybody that you know that I don't love you no more"
"I might see you in my nightmares. But how do you get there? Cause we were once a fairy tale but this is farewell"

3. Solange x Would've Been The One
Look up the words to the whole song.

4. Kenna x Static
" Don't know if I want you to understand me...or go"
"To love and let go was never the design"
"Love come and bless me, show me how to feel. I've been here a time before and it wasn't real"

5. Gnarls Barkley x Charity Case
"If I help somebody maybe there's mercy for me"
"I don't understand how I'm so understanding. I guess that that's all I can be"

6. John Legend x Good Morning
"Before you get into the shower. Before you worry 'bout your hair. Baby give me one more hour. I want you to stay right there. I don't wanna lose a moment. I don't wanna miss a kiss. If I could plan a perfect day, Love I would start it just like this...Good Morning"

7. Kanye West x Say You Will
"Mrs. So Fly crash lands in my room. Can't waste no time. She might leave soon"
"Hey Hey Hey Hey. Don't say you will. One day you will. I pray you will"
"I wish this song would really come true"

8. N.E.R.D. x Breakout
"All you can be is just you cause you're real not the plastic type. But reality sets and you're stuck in this plastic life"
"Shit happens. Just blow it off. But don't it make you feel rage?"

9. Gnarls Barkley x Going On
"You can stand right there if you want, I'm going on and I'm prepared to go it alone"
"I'm going on and I promise I'll be waiting for you"

10. N.E.R.D. x The Way She Dances
"When your eyes are closed I hope I'm the man you see. Cause if not, I want you to know tonight I plan to be"
"When sparks fly, I think that's love"

11. Solange x I Told You So
"The longer we go I know the fire will start to fade, fade, fade. I may be walking too long for this race. I know you said that you won't do the same. So I'm writing this song so the day I see I'm right I'll play this record with a smirk while I say...I told you so"
"I know you think you love me, but love ain't never stopped nobody from creeping around every once in a while when things start to settle down. And so I won't look like a clown I'm gon' call it now"

12. Kenna x Sun Red, Sky Blue
"Underneath your skin again. Right below your innocence. I can tell you're hesitant. Let me heal the heart of it, my love"
"I believe I'd taken flight with wings of wax and heart of ice. Melted by your blessed eyes, angel hear my cries"

5 Things You May Not Know...

About Me.

x. I love South Park.
x. I tend to stay awake more hours than I sleep.
x. I tend to date and/or talk to dudes with the same last name. Not on purpose though..it's weird.
x. I majored in graphic design at Bowie State.
x. I'd pick the Redskins over the Cowboys any day.

Oh, and as a bonus,...

I counted yesterday, I have 41 pairs of shoes. That's not counting the ones I boxed away a while back....i know there's more somewhere.

How To Play Yourself.

For as long as I can remember dudes have always thought they were slicker than me.

Some still do. This could not be further from the truth. Even if I don't say anything...I still know. Remember that. I always find out. Always.

With that being said...

How To Play Yourself. Part I.

This is the story...

*Ronnie called himself trying to talk to me for a while. From what I hear I'm pretty so he's not the only one. Anyway, a little after that he was kind of talking to somebody else I know...

He doesn't know I knew that.

To shorten the story up, she eventually was taken out of the picture do to unforseen circumstances. Guess what happened after that. He asked for my number. So I gave it to him because I wanted to see how he was gonna try and play this. I had no intrest. Somebody else had my attention at the moment. So after a couple conversations I stopped. I have to really like you to want to keep up contact and have casual random conversations with you.

But how did he play himself? That's what you wanna know right? Well...

I was in a stall at work and I hear a girl come in and say,

"Yeah she called from a restricted number and I didn't answer so she called back and then I answered"

So I'm like whatever..another one of these..then I hear...

"So she asked me 'do you talk to Ronnie?'"

At this point I'm fully into the conversation...

"So I told her 'yeah who is this?' and she said 'I'm his baby's mother'"

The conversation goes on and I find out the girl doesn't know how the mother got her number (his phone, duh), she has been talking to him for a month and the baby mama has been on and off with him for 3 years. She said she lives with him but that may or not be true because she may have been lying...according to the girl.

But..

Trying to play me is one of the many ways you play yourself, sir.

*So Ronnie clearly isn't his name. His name isn't that common. That's why the chances of the girl at the same job as me talking about the same "Ronnie" that also has a kid (I'd heard that before) are better than the odds of it not being him.

There's much more to this story but...I'm typing on a phone. We all know how efficient and comfortable that is.

How To Play Yourself. Part I.

Coming Soon...

"Don't play yaself like Solitaire"

--Lupe Fiasco

Yet Another Reason Why...

I love my friends. Don't you wish you had friends like mine?

So Much To Say....

...so little I can actually let out.

I'm sparing peoples feelings again and trying not to let certain personal things and sensitive information out but it's really hurting me.

Well, that's gonna be my excuse.

It's late so I'll be posting more on this later.

In other news...I want a NOOKA watch now.

I LOVE My Friends.

Bestest especially.

Remember my first list? If you do you should recognize 2 of 4 things in the picture.

Bestest got me one of the dunny's (toofly) and the ol master ninja in the back.

I also have the 2 Tokidoki posters. I love my bestest, lol.

You too could be like him. There is still time.

Yes, the rest of the list so far are slightly expensive but you shoulda picked early. That's what you get for slackin'.

Actually, one thing from either list would make ne just as happy...well I think it would.

I Thought This Was Funny...

I was gonna say that it was hilarious because I actually did laugh out loud when I read it...

Specifically what Wale says.

XXL: The internet has been such an important tool for rappers in the past few years, particularly this young generation of rappers. How have you guys used the Internet to your advantage.

Charles Hamilton: ....I have a blog. I talk a lot of shit on my blog. I don't care. It's my blog. If I do an interview with hip-hopgame.com and say rapper X is a retard and doesn't write his own shit, I will say that I said that because I felt like saying that and you can read this article at hip-hopgame.com....

Cory Gunz: I look at [message boards] as feedback. I go off of how the average dude will look at what somebody write about them on the internet and take offense to it...I take that and turn it into something positive.

Wale: My skin is not that thick. If I see somebody joning, I'm like, How the fuck do I get this nigga's IP address?

Kid Cudi: Have you ever traced somebody down?

Wale: Have I ever traced somebody down? I've done it. You'd be surprised what you seen on that shit.

I got a few people I'd like to track down...lol.

I'm Gonna Go Ahead & Apologize...

Only for the last post...

I don't do that very often...

I felt like I ha-- not have to but kind of need to because that was kind of OC. I'm not gonna lie and say I wasn't still slightly salty about the whole thing but when you smell BS you just don't sit there and take the shit right? You do something about it.

Ask questions later.

...Did I just apologize without actually apologizing?

Words of Advice...

If you're gonna bam out and do some weak ass shit with a weak ass excuse don't leave valuables behind....

Anybody want a new watch? lmao...

You might wanna come get that...

FUCK YEAH!!!!

Im about to fuckin cry over here no bull.

I cant explain how excited I am. This is the happiest I've been for somebody else.

We got a fuckin BLACK president.

I'm Not Tryna Jinx Anything....

BUT 220 to 138 is looking awfully good right about now.

...all this while I sit and listen to N.E.R.D. on my Zune while watching CNN & Fox.

I know you thought you're life was gon' be easy...you thought you had it all...but you found out you were wrong...

Judgement Day.

Luckily my voting place is right next to my neighborhood but we are still in my neighborhood in that picture. The line is that long. I'm not even at the end.

Part 3.

The Shoes.

Supra Black & Purple Croc Skytop.


109.95

Black & Croc Supra Skytop


99.95

Skytop Blue Suede Shoe


104.95


Supra Vaider Purple


94.95

Oh and these...

Vans Wellesley Black & Denim



54.95



_{Available at Zumiez.}

I think I Found Your Gift.

Timberland-inspired Skytops.






Yes? No? Maybe?

_{via Complex}.

The Source, November 2008

I'm not imagining things right? Lupe's name is on the cover right? I got got.

If anybody finds Lupe even mentioned in that magazine please let me know.

This is not helping their reputation with me, lol.

Lupe Fiasco, Pole Dancing & Halloween Parties

All parts of my fun-filled weekend in the Chi.

I'll elaborate later.

Part 2?

I should be packing seeing as how I leave to catch the shuttle to the airport for Chicago for my Lupe show in a couple hours..I mean it seem like a long time but I have a whole lot left to do.

Anyway...the pictures are terrible but...

Breathe No. 19 Tranquil Bubble Bath.
$32.


Relax No. 9 Evening Bubble Bath.
$32


Breathe No. 19 Petite Luminary.
$32


Relax No. 9 Petite Luminary.
$32


Relax No. 9 Shea Butter Handcreme
$24


Inspire Special Reserve Glass Luminary
$102


_{YOU can get all of this at Lollia Life.}

HELL YEAH!

Got those babies today lol. Tickets for the Chicago show.

Guess what else. I've never been on a plane before. Ever.

I don't think I've ever even been inside an airport.

So, I'm addicted...

...to a lot of things...

Actually it's about 4 things I can think of straight off the top.

They include tea, music (Lu especially lol) and art....among other things... and now Twitter is one of them. It caught on quick and I can't stop. It's crazy.

twitter.com/KadeejiaDenise

I'M GOING TO CHICAGO!

After much contemplation (along with struggling & begging) I am going to Chicago this Halloween. I will be seeing The Lupe Fiasco Show...again.

It'll also be my first time in Chicago. Pray for me.

Not because I'm going to Chicago but because I may not have somewhere to stay when I get back, lol.

Seriously though...

The List.

I will be occasionally dropping hints and just throwing out there things I may want for my birthday and or Christmas. This is the only one that will actually be titled The List. So watch for the tags.

So..

Dunny Series 5: Toofly
8.99


Dunny French Series: Tilt
12.99


Tokidoki Poster: Heaven & Hell
19.99 ea x x


Ninjatown : Pocket Ol' Master Ninja
20


_{All can be found at myplasticheart.}

That's My SHIT!

I actually said that when I realized he was about to do this song...

You get the video somebody else posted. I couldn't get a video because...of reasons I don't feel like going into because it's gonna piss me off again.

I could have had the best pictures in the history of pictures ever... Exaggeration? Maybe.



Coulda woulda shoulda...


_{SIDENOTE: I'm mad at the dude that yelled 'I love you Lupe' Homo? Slightly.}

The Dangers of Sleepwalking.

For about the last week my sleep cycle has been a little off. Im up
when I should be sleeping. I'm sleeping when I should be up. When I
do sleep I'm only sleep for about 4-5 hours. Six if I'm lucky.

Anyway, the other night I almost died because of it.

Okay I may be slightly exaggerating. This is what happened...

I had the urge to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night while
I was dreaming. I don't remember what I was dreaming about but the
next thing I do remember was being up and grabbing the door handle and
walking at the same time. I guess my mind wasn't fully where it
should have been yet because the next thing I know the corner of the
door and my face met in the dark. Hard.

After I almost knocked myself out I immediately (literally in the next
step) scratched my foot on a box outside my door.

I now have 3 bruises. All of which I caused myself. (The other one
is a hand injury I caused 3 days ago)

The spot where I hit my face is red and slightly swollen, my foot has
a big ugly bruise on it and my hand has a scratch on top of a bruise.

It's like I'm cursed or some kind of voodoo nonsense. This is getting
out of hand.

I've Decided...

...that you are the him for meee! Oh boy! lls.

Seriously, I've decided what I want and what I want to do for my 21st.

Lupe Fiasco (yes, that guy again) is having a show Saturday, November 22nd in NY. The day of my birthday.

So, if any kind, thoughtful, caring, beautiful & beautifully generous person wants to go ahead and make that happen for me be my guest. It'd be greatly appreciative.

I need a rental car, a hotel room, and 2..maybe 3 tickets to the show.

Make that happen. The tickets go on sale on this Monday..the 20th at 10am.

And just because I care... I'll even help pay for some of it.

Thanks, I love you all.

lol.

Best Weekend Ever?

I have a Top 5 Weekends of My Life list. Okay not really but I can remember 5 that really stand out. This last weekend just bumped the last one out. I'm not sure if it's number one but it is damn sure up there.

Okay, so two of these weekends involve Lupe of course and 2 more of them involve somebody else...but anyway...

I went to see Lupe this Saturday. Although the set was shorter than I would have liked it to be it was ridiculously great.

Seriously. lol.

I don't think I've ever seen anybody perform so..hard. I've never seen him so energetic. I kind of almost expected him to pass out from exhaustion. He was that gone. That show was the epitome of someone going into another zone when they performed.

KayCee, who is cool as shit by the way, posted a review of the concert and even though other ones are more detailed I think hers gives you the jist of what happened.

Some dude pissed on the floor and ....man this is gonna sound like a bad joke but I'll say it anyway...he ended up pissing everybody off around him and they got him kicked out. Hey, I warned you.

What else...Lu's opening act had a mascot who was almost as, if not more, entertaining than they were at some points. If anybody remembers what their name was and the name of that last song they did it'd be greatly
appreciated.

What else...oh..sound in the front wasn't all that great but at least I got to see everything without having to stand on my toes.

There was some groupie-like girls behind me and I think they had a part in trying to get the crowd to yell "Loopy". Of course that shit didn't fly. Even with half the people there not knowing who Lu was.

Even though I don't drink there are blocks of time that have been lost from that night so I may skip around in the events....ok..

So Lu apparently looked right at me at one point..somebody else told me this. Of course I didn't catch that. Bishop said KayCees name in his freestyle that I could barely hear up front and she didn't catch that at all lol, uhh Lu shouted out the blog right after he looked down at her. That got screams from random people. I also heard a guy behind me say that we "must be from the blog".

He was half right, lol.

I remember losing my voice for a second after yelling the words to
Sunshine, Paris, Tokyo, Kick Push, Daydreamin, I Gotcha, Superstar,
Hi-Definition, Dumb It Down, HHSML, & Go Go Gadget Flow. I think thats all of em
lol. [That's more than 7 songs by the way].

SIDENOTE: I loved the whole 'I love you' thing before Superstar. I'm
still singing it lol. AND I don't understand how once he said 'because you are..' people didn't see Superstar coming from a mile away. People in there sounded amazed once he said 'a superstar'afterwards. Seriously?

Anyway, apparently people are fans but can't tell Bishop from Gem,
Lupe has perfect timing, I'm 'skinny & pretty', vending machines DO
NOT take $5 bills, & pimples do come up the day before important
events just like in the movies and on tv.

I'm Moving.

Not any time too soon.

Hopefully around this time next year I'll have a place and be in it. Hopefully in Philly. I can live by myself just not too far away from family.

Anyway, it's never to early to start preparing to move. With that being said...it's never to early to start buying me umm...house warming gifts. Yes, that's what I'll call them.

I want one of these 2 things for my bathroom. You could always get both so I could switch it up.


Sam Flores Shower Curtain by FIFTY24SF. $42.


Jeremy Fish Shower Curtain by FIFTY24SF. $42.

_{Both available at Digital Gravel.}^{Thanks in advance.}_{You guys are the best. lol.}

I'd So Wear This If I Was A Guy.

"Target" T-shirt by Upper Playground. $25.


"Big Time Small Time" Shirt by 10Deep. $88.


"Man/Machine" Sweater by Mishka. $176.

Part 1.
_{All available on Digital Gravel.}